I'm really so frustrated. I've come here and written a lot of posts, but my feelings change every day. I'm still in my early twenties, so the friends I met after entering college don't know my real face, and I'm scared of suddenly becoming unattractive. I hate that when I remove my makeup, the silicone mark shows through on my nose exactly as it is. I had the surgery as soon as I got accepted through early admission in my senior year of high school, so I don't even remember what my face looked like back then ㅠㅠ I also lost a huge amount of weight. Even if I have revision surgery, my thinned skin won't become thick again, but if I remove it, I'm scared I'll become unattractive. Truly, I think, "I guess I won't hear that I'm pretty anymore," and thoughts like that come to me. I'm not the type to care much about what others think, but I'm scared that my face, which I've gotten so used to, might change drastically ㅠㅠ I need to get a job and take graduation photos too, but I was just looking in the mirror during exam period and came in here. One day I think, I should just take it out, what else can I do, the thinned skin at the nasal tip won't become thick again... Another day I think, but I still want to live looking pretty... even in my twenties, I want to live looking pretty... I have thoughts like that too... . The doctor at the hospital where I had it done says if I want the silicone removed, he'll remove it, but I can't make up my mind...
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