Due to tenderness and tightness... I eventually came all the way to the removal discussion area

Eventually, I’ve even come all the way here... If you’re a comment broker, you’ll be punished.. Don’t do that It’s been over two and a half months since my nose surgery It turned into a surgery with all kinds of ups and downs After removing Gore-Tex from a surgery I had a long time ago, I had silicone 3.5 mm (to be exact, they said it was 3.3), hump correction, and ear cartilage for the nasal tip Honestly, I didn’t look into it that much, and my first nose was so comfortable and felt like my own nose (I guess I thought too lightly of it..) I had some dissatisfaction with the shape, so after a lot of thought, I had the surgery Before surgery, people here and there were talking about costal cartilage, septal cartilage, and so on But I wanted a natural look.. The surgeon who operated on me said a slight hump correction, silicone, and ear cartilage would be enough, so that’s what I did I thought the price was reasonably fair too But it was hard for me to save up that money.. Right now, it’s at least a bit better when I wake up But as the afternoon goes on, the tightness gets worse, and then there is tenderness, and then the glabella/nasal bone area hurts (It hurts like it’s being pinched with a clothespin) (the glabella feels achy and sore) (Sometimes my eyes sting and tears slightly well up) Depending on my posture, my nose feels twisted and heavy Especially when I tilt my head to the right, that position makes the pain worse When I lie turned to the right, there is pain My right cheek intermittently feels very firm Above the nasolabial fold on the right side, is there a tendon under the skin? When I feel a pulling irritation, I end up stroking it with my hand once in a while, because then it feels a bit better From about two months in, my nose started feeling stuffy They say the inside of my nose has narrowed Oh right, I had surgery in November After one month, slight cartilage show-through at the nasal tip appeared The doctor said the pain would decrease, but the pain has not gone away at all It’s almost been three months Regarding the cartilage, their reaction was something like, we’ll monitor the progress and use a different method to supplement it? In the end, that means opening it again and supplementing it, right? After the nose surgery... my heart keeps pounding like crazy, and I can’t bear to look at my face The person in the mirror doesn’t feel like me Since the surgery, I haven’t smiled once, only cried.. This is the story of how I came all the way to the removal discussion area (After revision surgery, the current nose shape or whatever doesn’t even matter, but if I talk about it, only the side profile changed, and from the front, even my mom can’t tell the difference between my previous nose and my current nose The reason I got my nose done was because my nostrils showed, and it’s correct to say that wasn’t corrected After revision rhinoplasty, when I stroke down from the glabella toward the nasal bridge, I feel an indentation like it’s being pressed with a fingernail It’s definitely where the silicone is, so it must be a pressed mark from the silicone Unless I touch it, it’s not very noticeable, so I let it go There was also a contaminated-looking mark on my skin and a faint mark on the nasal bridge that wasn’t there before It definitely wasn’t there before surgery.. It doesn’t show with makeup, and unless you look closely it’s not noticeable, so I let that go too.. The doctor said skin isn’t all the same to begin with Around the middle of the nasal bridge, slightly to the right, there’s a pressed area like a glasses nose pad I wonder if that’s where the silicone ends.. Below that, there’s a step-off But this is also something I feel because it’s my own body and I touch my own nose; other people don’t know.. The reason I’m saying this is that after removal, my nose wasn’t pretty to begin with, and I’m so scared what shape it will become)