Since I’ve posted here a lot, some people may know already. In my case.. after costal cartilage surgery, because of tightness, heaviness, pain, and so on, I had everything removed. Then I had revision surgery very simply and minimally with L-shaped silicone. Honestly, when I had it done with costal cartilage, the shape was very pretty.. But because it hurt so much and stressed me out, that’s how people are, I guess. Pretty or whatever, the main thing is to live without pain. So I had it removed.. Of course, it wasn’t that I had any inflammation at all, and it wasn’t red, and from the outside it didn’t even look like I’d had surgery. It was a perfect nose. But. Really strangely, my columella felt tight, my face felt tight, my nasal bridge felt tight, and after enduring it for 3 months.. I suddenly decided that maybe costal cartilage just wasn’t right for me, and thought, let’s survive..!! With that mindset, I had everything removed and thought, let’s just put in one very simple silicone implant..!! That kind of feeling.. Then surely it wouldn’t hurt at all.. A simple surgery with a very low silicone implant.. It still hurts.ㅠ.ㅠ For more than 5 months after nose surgery, my columella has been tight, so I haven’t once smiled widely. My mouth won’t open. It feels like there’s something heavy in my columella, it’s tight and gets in the way, anyway it’s so uncomfortable around the nostrils that it’s hard to describe in words and it’s exhausting. When I open my mouth wide and talk, it feels like something is poking my nostril,. The hospital says it’s scar tissue.. What kind of scar tissue hurts and feels this hard.. This pain,, I can’t express it in words. I cried every day for 5 months, and at one point I got depressed and even thought I might just die. I shut myself away and didn’t eat, so I lost 4 kg. People who are worried about the shape.. I envy you.. If the shape isn’t pretty, you can just have revision surgery. I can’t even have revision surgery anymore.. I realized that if I touch my nose any more, my nose will hurt even more.. A painful nose... I can’t tell you how hard it is..,.,, Especially around the philtrum.. it gets in the way, so I can’t speak properly. Oh, this really doesn’t work well. I can’t laugh loudly either.. My mouth won’t open and the tightness is severe.. Now I’m living while resigning myself to it.. I try to think of it as my fate, but even now I’m so sad and feel like I’m going crazy.. So those of you who had surgery and don’t have pain.. I can only envy people who are worried that the shape looks strange. Please don’t suffer too much.ㅠ.ㅠ Someone like me is living too..ㅠ.ㅠ Why does it hurt so much for me.. Even the hospital.. doesn’t seem to really know.. I’ve been to neurosurgery and ENT too. Since the problem is inside, not outside, maybe they can’t tell.ㅠ.ㅠ I’m so upset I feel like I’m going to turn inside out. I can’t sleep well either..ㅠ.ㅠ
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