My 3rd revision rhinoplasty.. Please look at my serious nose and swelling between the eyebrows,…

It is so hard that I really do not want to live...; My first nose was really pretty.. But somehow I injured my nose, and because of the second revision surgery.. I developed a pinched mark at the nasal tip... I endured severe nose pain for 1 year.. After much thought, I had revision surgery 8 days ago... As you can see, it is ruined again.. Every time I look in the mirror, I get startled, tears come out.. Last night I even thought about dying,,,; I really, really hate the idea of another revision surgery... but I think I will have to do it again... At the hospital, they say the 11-shaped glabella area and all the thick silicone are, well, swelling, and if I do not like it, I can take it out... I am going crazy I decided to go back to the hospital in 2 weeks to check the progress, but I think they will only say it is swelling again.. The columella area is leaning to the side, so the nostrils are severely uneven and upturned, but they say this is swelling too.. Please, I hope it is swelling and gradually becomes prettier.. but because of the pinched mark, I have already given up.. I went to get surgery for the pinched mark and came back with an even bigger problem... The money is one thing... I am going through every kind of pain.. How could this happen to me;; Please take a look.. the side profile, the glabella area, and the condition of my nose.. This cannot be swelling, right;; Setting aside the pinching... my nostrils are uneven.. because of the 11-shaped glabella, the area between my eyes looks shadowed,,, Will it really get better when the swelling goes down like the doctor says.. I see no hope.. I really wanted this surgery to be the end...; Ah.. this is seriously awful;