Depression after rhinoplasty... I'm so sick of this..

I had a severe appearance complex.. So I had two-jaw surgery.. I heard a lot of people say I became so pretty.. But relatively, my nose started to look way too big.. Ahead of my wedding,, I really mustered up the courage and went to a clinic for the first time, and after pleading with them.. I had a really natural surgery.. They shaved down the hump,, raised the glabella area slightly, and said they would correct the droopy arrow-shaped nose?? But the droopy arrow-shaped nose disappeared,,, yet as time went on, the nasal tip bulb became so big,, and I couldn't get used to it.. Like someone possessed, I went to another clinic recklessly... and asked them to make my nose smaller again.. So,, alar reduction, osteotomy, septal support graft, septal cartilage for the nasal bridge, septal cartilage for the nasal tip, cartilage tying... I ended up doing all of that... It was crazy.... My nose became really way too small... My face is big... but only my nose became small... The balance was completely broken.. Pointy and,, totally plastic-surgery-monster looking... From then on I cried and screamed,, went to the clinic,, and asked them to remove it, but they absolutely wouldn't... They said my nose turned out so pretty and well.. and told me to wait.. It's been a little over 5 months now.. I still can't get used to this enormous foreign-body sensation and my appearance that has changed so much, and I'm struggling... My newlywed life has all been ruined by my depression.. Day by day... I'm holding on with medication.. Because my two-jaw surgery was successful... I guess I mistakenly thought my nose would just turn out well too... It's so, so hard... I'm looking into removal surgery.. but I feel lost...