Everyone, seriously.. why am I so upset?

Everyone I just got calls from two of my aunts They’re all making things so hard for me Seriously, everyone is being too much They told me that since I already did it, even if I fail several times, I should keep getting revision surgery Seriously They said weird things like if I use costal cartilage, my nose will become pretty Ah, seriously.. After hearing that, I cried so much I said I don’t want to touch my face anymore They keep calling me on video call Seriously I’m so angry How can they do that when I said I don’t want to It feels like they’re swarming around like monsters, seriously I lived through last month so painfully because of stress But still, now I’m trying to organize my thoughts, endure and endure, go about my daily life, go to school, and wait for the removal day I really don’t know why they’re making today so hard like this.. I said I’m scared that I might fail and ruin things while getting revision surgery, and that I don’t want a knife on my face anymore Then they said if it fails, just get a third revision surgery Since if you get revision surgery anyway, you have to wait 6 months They say things like that Wow.. seriously, those 6 months are so hard Wow, seriously.. Isn’t that too much? They say it so easily I cried so hard I’m enduring and enduring and enduring again But the video calls still keep coming I’m ignoring all the calls right now Seriously Why are they making it this hard I feel like I’m going crazy I texted that I don’t want to video call and it stresses me out too much Then the reply was No, I’m going to see it And they keep calling Seriously, why are they making things so hard Seriously, ah seriously The moment I talked to them, the thought that came to mind was Ah, should I just die? I had that kind of thought.. I cried so much continuously, seriously.. My aunts kept saying to ask for a refund, to get a refund and things like that They asked why I only went to one place and decided so rashly Why I only went to one place and got surgery.. That’s right, seriously, I took plastic surgery too lightly Because everyone around me succeeded I really regret it painfully But they keep scolding me It was really hard.. When they talk about my nose and even when I just hear the word plastic surgery, I feel scared, frightened, and want to run away Ah, really.. After crying and crying, what came to mind was this community Ah, really People who haven’t gone through something like this really don’t know.. No one knows Because they don’t know, they just say things carelessly I’m already stressed, scared, and struggling because I can’t predict what my nose shape will be even after removal And today I finally got hurt emotionally Sigh..