It has been... day 6 now since I removed 15-year-old I-shaped silicone. Right after removing it, it still looked somewhat high and sharp~ and the nasal tip was round and pretty, but day by day it’s gradually going back to my own nose. They said that because of the capsule, it might even be a bit higher than before. Hmm, I’m not really sure about that. Even though nothing was done to the nasal tip at all, it seems slightly~~ upturned. My nose was completely straight and slightly droopy, so even if it is a little upturned, it doesn’t look very strange, but I don’t think it’s exactly the same. The glabella area is still slightly swollen. It really feels like it was erased with an eraser... The nasal tip became round, so people say it actually suits my face more, looks cuter, and makes me look younger. (They say this after I tell them I had my nose implant removed. If I don’t say anything, I don’t think they notice.) If I wear glasses or a hat, overall it looks similar to before the nose removal, so people don’t really notice, but when I take off my glasses and hat, to me it looks really unattractive. My impression really changed. The space between my eyes really got wider... flat... ㅜㅜ Especially the 45-degree angle looks so unattractive. ㅠㅠ Still, I’m holding on while being satisfied that I’m natural now. I’ll have to get used to it, right?? The doctor said the swelling would all go down in about 1 month, but I’m scared it might get even lower from here. Since my face looks flatter, I feel like at least my skin needs to be good for me to look refined. Once my nose fully recovers, I should remove my moles and get some dermatology treatments too. I should manage my body shape more as well. ㅠㅠ People from university and former coworkers keep asking to meet, but this feeling of slightly not wanting to go out... what is it? I can just not say anything, right? ㅡㅜ Even as I get older, this low self-esteem that still cares about what people around me think... I really hate it. I need to love myself more.
PS. Still, after removing my nose implant, my mom and older sister are happy, saying my face looks much warmer... and it feels like good fortune is coming back into my nose haha Compared with the crooked nose from putting silicone in... now is better, I guess... haha
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