Revision surgery, 6 months later, L-shaped silicone

I had double eyelid surgery and nose surgery at a plastic surgery clinic near my local station after the college entrance exam the year before last. Back then, I knew nothing about plastic surgery and just had the operation to become prettier. So I simply followed whatever the doctor recommended, and I asked them to make it as natural as possible. So I had an incision double eyelid surgery and had only the bridge of my nose raised with silicone through one side inside the nose. But once I actually did what the doctor said, the eyes looked okay, but because I didn't do epicanthoplasty, the double eyelids looked very puffy and stuffy, and especially the nose was the problem. It was set way too high and was extremely crooked, so when I took an ID photo, the nose looked like it was stuck to the side of my face. When I called, they said I had to wait more than 6 months, so I waited and then went to the clinic with that photo. The doctor looked at it too and said I needed revision surgery, then set a surgery date. This time, they said they'd do epicanthoplasty too and open the nose fully to adjust even the tip. I paid all the additional cost for the nose tip as well. But after doing it, the height was lowered so it looked natural, but because the silicone was still slightly crooked and went all the way to the tip in an L shape, forget about a pig nose - even if my younger sibling and I were just joking around and my nose was lightly brushed, I would involuntarily go, ouch, because it hurt so much. It has basically become a hard lump of silicone for a nose. Before surgery, they said the bridge could be done with silicone and the tip just needed a slight refinement, so I believed that and went ahead, but this is completely I'm a student preparing for exams right now, so it's awkward to bring this up to my mom again, and I don't even have money for another surgery. For a few months right after the surgery, while the swelling was going down, the shape was so weird before that I only focused on the shape and on my eyes having been cut, and didn't think about it properly.. But now that I know about the side effects of L-shaped silicone, and the side profile also looks strange, like the silicone has sagged like a hooked nose, if I leave it like this both the shape and the side effects will end up looking wrong. Older sisters, what should I do if I go to the hospital. What should I say, and even if they say they'll do revision surgery, I don't want to have surgery there again. Please help me.