Is there really no way.,,

Somehow this has already become the 3rd time.. It’s not because of my greed.. After the CSAT, I had my eyes and nose done (silicone + septal cartilage).. My eyes turned out quite well, and my nose was originally so low, with a forehead and brow bones...;; that meant it couldn’t be raised much, so people really didn’t notice the nose... I lived fairly satisfied, thinking well, it’s good that it doesn’t look obvious. But 1 year later, cartilage protruded outside my nostril, so because of that I had surgery again using ear cartilage. But the shape became much slimmer and better.. I lived satisfied, and then my columella gradually started collapsing.. Completely to the left.... Damn..... So I went to the hospital and had surgery again only 6 months after the revision.... But my columella is still crooked... They used ear cartilage again.. but unlike the previous surgery, my ear hurt so much. It’s been about a month and even now.. my ear hurts, so I’m wondering if my ear is rotting.. But this time, what now? Scar tissue..... That scar tissue I’d only heard about really stuck onto my nose like a bulbous nose.... The nose wasn’t corrected, and I got scar tissue as a bonus... I’m really at the point of going completely crazy... Even though I’m not well off, I went all the way from the provinces to Gangnam.. I feel sorry to my mom and dad... So I don’t want to show them this nose, and I barely talk with my mom and dad,... I’m living like that. My younger sibling comforts me saying there’s not much difference from the previous surgery, but the nose I see in the mirror really has the bridge and the tip looking separate.. I want to detach the nasal tip and throw it away... There are many other members here whose noses became totally like celebrities’ noses, but what is this for me.. I think the beginning of the nightmare was that I carelessly had it done there just because my older cousin did it there... The crooked nose is only noticeable if I point it out, so I was going to just tolerate it and live with it... I don’t think they’ll give me a refund either... They also said removing only the nasal tip isn’t possible.. My nose was originally very low.. If I remove both the silicone and the nasal tip, only scar tissue will remain, and that seems like it would become a true bulbous nose, so I’m scared.. My original columella wasn’t crooked, so the crookedness should go back .... but then I’m scared it might not go back... They say nothing can really be done about scar tissue... If it weren’t for the scar tissue, I wouldn’t be worrying this seriously... I just rambled on and on.... because it’s so hard...