I posted on January 3^^

I posted on January 3, and since the computer at home wasn't working, I tried to post replies, but they said I couldn't because a week had passed I'm at a friend's house, and my friend isn't here, so I'm secretly leaving a post. Ah~ this miserable reality. Today is already day 40. But there still hasn't been any progress with the swelling. The comments everyone left for me really gave me strength, and I'm grateful^^ As expected, only people who've been through it understand that feeling.. I went to the hospital yesterday, and because I get depressed about the swelling every time I go to the hospital, they said if I come tomorrow, they'll do ultrasound or whatever it is, saying it will help the swelling go down. For reference, they were kind of making a show of it, saying other hospitals don't do it and so on. Anyway, since there hasn't been any effect, I haven't said anything nice, but I've never said anything harsh either. In any case, every time I go to the hospital, I know it's useless to say anything a hundred times until the swelling goes down, so I just sit there expressionless every day ㅡㅡ; I also know that swelling keeps going down for about 3 to 6 months, but recently, after staying stuck at home, I met 2 friends, and they asked why my face was so swollen and whether I was sick somewhere. That means it's bigger than my previous face.. And another friend also said, why did you gain so much weight.. Even though I tell myself not to listen, when I see photos of people whose surgery went well and people whose swelling is going down, I worry that the surgery I spent all my savings on might have no effect, and I keep wondering if it would have been better if I had gone to another hospital instead of this one. I'm really going crazy. A few days ago, I watched Seven Days, and they said those kinds of worries are why people whose cosmetic surgery went wrong seek psychiatric care Of course, it's not that the surgery went wrong, but if there is no effect, isn't that also a failure? Anyway, the wound is healing well, and it seems like the speed at which I can open my mouth is gradually improving, but this damn face was supposed to get smaller.. I really have no idea when the effect will show. As everyone said, time really is the medicine, but the reason I'm even more impatient is that I used up all the money I saved and need to go back to work, but because of this damned swelling, I can't work and I have no money, so I think that's making it worse.