I’m swelling like crazy.. I only told my mom and I’m living hidden away at home, and it’s so hard. When I go to the bathroom or go gargle, I wait until the family is asleep.. Even my mom keeps getting startled, so being shut up in my room is so painful.. When I buy Seolleim ice cream to use as a cold pack, my older brother eats it all.. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ Tomorrow I’m going to get the tape removed, and I feel like I should wash my hair before going, but what should I do? Can I wash it? I want to go to a hair salon and have it washed, but I’m embarrassed in the neighborhood, and my mom and dad have their reputations too, so how can I go.. When my dad calls me, I get startled and pretend to be asleep. I feel like I’ve become a criminal. After the tape comes off and the swelling goes down even just a little, I want to act normal, but looking like this, there’s no way. Ah, deceiving your family is really hard. Why is the swelling not going down like this? And when I sleep, I keep sleeping with my mouth open. Why is that? The hospital said it went well. From tomorrow it’s supposed to be the days when it goes down, so I hope it goes down quickly. When will I be able to freely eat tasty food? Does anyone happen to know? Honestly, I feel like chewing something now wouldn’t be a problem, and I tried practicing. But it’s because I’m afraid something will get stuck inside my mouth, right? I should hold back.. I guess. Also, my neck is itchy. The area where the tape is attached and my chin itch sometimes too; nothing’s wrong, right?? The most painful moment is when I look at old photos where I came out pretty.. It makes me think maybe I was okay before too lololol But no matter how much I think about it, I think I did the right thing. If I live like a recluse for just 2 weeks, the rest of my life will be happy. Thinking that the swelling will go down quickly from tomorrow, today too.. fighting
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