I’m so, so angry....

Even as I’m writing this, I just keep sighing automatically.... I had my nose done two months ago... On the day I had my nose surgery, I looked like a complete monster.. As soon as I got home, my mom burst into tears... I endured a week looking like a monster, but even after trying to account for the swelling going down, it just didn’t add up, so I had the silicone removed, but the nasal bridge spread out and the nasal tip stretched out long, so it became completely strange, and I ended up restoring the nasal tip to its original state too. It’s been a week since the restoration, but my nose is still the same... But the important thing is that the double eyelids in both eyes have disappeared.... The skin at the front of my eyes was pulled along with my nose, and I looked incredibly ridiculous So now I have social anxiety, insomnia at night, and in the morning I hate looking in the mirror so much that I can’t even get up To the point where I wonder what I paid money to do to myself, my life has become so miserable I used to hear that I was pretty a lot, but these days I never hear that My face has changed to look masculine and wolf-like.... I don’t know what I should do Only the hospital doctor says I became prettier.... My face and nose severely don’t suit each other, but only he says it turned out well, and my heart hurts so much,,,,