It’s so hard

It has been a month and a half since I had surgery (revision surgery). Not even for one second since having it done have I thought it turned out well. Every day I kept a hand mirror with me and thought it must just be swelling, But I had it done at a place that is widely known for natural-looking results, And this is completely like an artificial person. I was so upset that I wanted to see what others would say, So I went to other hospitals for consultations. What they said to me was That my glabella looked unnatural, as if I had been hit there, And that although my facial image is slim, how could they possibly have put in such a large implant. That is what they said. And when I went to a dermatology clinic -- They honestly said it was too obvious. And at another hospital, even though I had not even brought up my nose, They suddenly started talking about my nose (that hospital does not even perform nose surgery), And said why did they put in such a large implant that anyone could tell. Then, even though it had nothing to do with them, they said to me, "I think you will need to have it redone." That is what they said. When I went to the hospital, they did give me filler as a temporary measure. Because anyone could see there was no tissue next to the nasal bridge, so much so that the outline of the implant could be drawn. And why did they raise the glabella so high? It looks like they just attached a Western nose, or a man's nose, Onto a Korean face. Even though it is Gore-Tex, it is severely obvious. Even the shape of the nasal bridge is not straight. It is bumpy. When I told the director, this is what they said: That my original nose was not a smooth nose, and after placing the implant on top, it lifted a bit -- does that make sense? Every day feels like hell. I do not want to care about it, but when I look in the mirror, I get so upset. Waiting for revision surgery is so hard. Right now I cannot even meet people, And I am just gaining weight.