Ten days since surgery.

It’s been ten days since surgery, The first 2–3 days after surgery, I swelled up a lot. I looked almost like Neytiri, the female Na’vi from Avatar. After the swelling went down, yellow bruises settled in, but they all disappeared after 4 days. Once I came to my senses a bit and looked at myself, honestly.. it felt bitter. What glory and riches was I trying to gain;;; Right after surgery, I went to the bathroom, tilted my head back, and looked at my nose, and it was crooked... sigh, I let out one sigh. I lay down on the hospital bed and waited for the director. Hmm, it went well.. They seemed very satisfied. Two days later, I went to the hospital and had the gauze lodged in my nose removed, (Haaaa~~~~~ how could it feel this refreshing. lol Now I could taste things again.) The director said my nose was crooked, and twisted my nose;;; It hurt so much. The twisted nose stayed the same.. It was still crooked. A week after surgery, I went to the hospital and had the stitches removed. The tape was all taken off too. When I looked in the mirror....blank shock...... My nose had become as long as a proboscis monkey’s;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;., I came home and looked closely at my nose for a long time. There was a problem under the nose too, but... the nasal bridge too........ is shifted to the left;;; Ha........... I was completely depressed, and then I came to know this community.. Why didn’t I know about it earlier.... I regret it so much. It may also be because I drank coffee last night, but suddenly regret came crashing in like a tsunami, and I tossed and turned all night.. And in the midst of that, I made up my mind;;; I will have it removed... These are things I could know without necessarily trying them, yet every day I spend money and time like this, suffer emotionally, experience it firsthand, regret it, and so on. When will I ever grow up................