I was trying to accept it and live with it now... photos taken down

Today marks exactly one month since my surgery... After getting my nose done, I felt like my image changed so much and my face looked even stranger, so I made a huge fuss trying to have it removed..... Even when I went to the hospital and said I wanted it removed, they absolutely wouldn’t remove it.. They said if I really wanted it removed, I should wait 6 months or 1 year before removing it.. They said other people also say it’s safer to wait at least 6 months before removing it..... So now I’ve been trying to get myself together and live by hypnotizing myself, telling myself let’s be satisfied with this face, let’s be satisfied, just endure exactly 6 months... But... I had finally gotten my mind settled and was living okay... From the day before yesterday? I looked in the mirror and my nasal tip was red... I had looked in the mirror right after coming in from outside, so I thought maybe it was because it was cold and just let it go.. But although it was better than the day before yesterday, yesterday it was still a bit red.... Looking closely, it also seemed like the nasal tip was protruding... And today the redness has gone down a bit, but it is still red.. I don’t know if it will show well in the photo, but I’ll upload one... But in the photo the redness doesn’t show... I don’t know if it’s inflammation or what... Or maybe my nasal tip was originally like this and I only discovered it now because I hadn’t looked closely before.... Ah, I had finally accepted it, but now that this happened, my urge to remove it is surging again........... Ah! And the other photos besides the nasal tip are before and after surgery..... (But even in the after photo, doesn’t the nasal tip look a bit protruded..? I took it yesterday..) I had my nose and eyes done together.. My eye swelling went down quickly and they settled quickly too... But because of my nose, I look quite a bit older...... (Before surgery I often heard that I looked young.. but now my friends say I look older.. so that’s stressful too..) So if there’s nothing wrong with the nasal tip, I’m just going to live like this for 6 months and then remove all the silicone and nasal tip cartilage.... Today marks exactly one month since my surgery... After getting my nose done, I felt like my image changed so much and my face looked even stranger, so I made a huge fuss trying to have it removed..... Even when I went to the hospital and said I wanted it removed, they absolutely wouldn’t remove it.. They said if I really wanted it removed, I should wait 6 months or 1 year before removing it.. They said other people also say it’s safer to wait at least 6 months before removing it..... So now I’ve been trying to get myself together and live by hypnotizing myself, telling myself let’s be satisfied with this face, let’s be satisfied, just endure exactly 6 months... But... I had finally gotten my mind settled and was living okay... From the day before yesterday? I looked in the mirror and my nasal tip was red... I had looked in the mirror right after coming in from outside, so I thought maybe it was because it was cold and just let it go.. But although it was better than the day before yesterday, yesterday it was still a bit red.... Looking closely, it also seemed like the nasal tip was protruding... And today the redness has gone down a bit, but it is still red.. I don’t know if it will show well in the photo, but I’ll upload one... But in the photo the redness doesn’t show... I don’t know if it’s inflammation or what... Or maybe my nasal tip was originally like this and I only discovered it now because I hadn’t looked closely before.... Ah, I had finally accepted it, but now that this happened, my urge to remove it is surging again........... Ah! And the other photos besides the nasal tip are before and after surgery..... (But even in the after photo, doesn’t the nasal tip look a bit protruded..? I took it yesterday..) I had my nose and eyes done together.. My eye swelling went down quickly and they settled quickly too... But because of my nose, I look quite a bit older...... (Before surgery I often heard that I looked young.. but now my friends say I look older.. so that’s stressful too..) So if there’s nothing wrong with the nasal tip, I’m just going to live like this for 6 months and then remove all the silicone and nasal tip cartilage.... Removing it after 6 months would be best, right...? If it were up to me, I’d want to remove it right now.... But the nasal tip... I heard that if time passes, adhesions? form and removal becomes difficult later... What should I do..? For my nasal tip I used ear cartilage, and for my nasal bridge I used silicone... Ah! And after removing it, will it go back to how it was before surgery....?