I posted recently.. but suddenly worry, regret, and sighs came crashing in like a tsunami, and I can’t stop crying A lot of people who had removal said it starts from one month.. so I prepared myself mentally... no, actually I didn’t prepare myself mentally I just thought it would be enough if my nose stayed like this But after a month passed... why is it getting this hard? My nose is stuck on my face looking this ugly.. and I’ve wasted my time like this.. My nose now is softer than before.. moves well side to side ..I haven’t tried a pig nose, so I don’t know, but it moves a little But the columella going in by a few millimeters is making things this... hard On top of that, the scar overlaps with it, so it shows even more.. No matter how much I cry, there’s no answer, so I feel like I’m going crazy I looked a bit into surgery to pull the columella out, but since that is surgery too, they say the nose becomes hard after surgery.. I really hate having a hard nose.. my mom keeps begging me never to put a knife to my body again.. I also don’t want to think about surgery again But when I look in the mirror, only tears come..... I can’t do this or that I’m avoiding my friends with all kinds of excuses and lies.. What am I even doing right now.... Scary thoughts, bad thoughts keep coming.. Seeing me like this, my mom is worried and says maybe I need psychiatric treatment. Honestly, I’m also so scared of myself, wondering if something will happen Do I really need to go to a hospital... For those who had removal, how did you endure these things..? This is probably the real beginning from now on, but it’s so hard...
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