I’m really depressed and stressed. Please help me. Day 21 after nose surgery

Please help me.. I don’t know what to do. I worked really hard at part-time jobs with what little money I had and got nose surgery to raise my low nasal bridge, but my impression has changed, and the shape I did not want came out, so I’m so stressed. Today, too, I went to meet a friend, and from far away, my reflection in the mirror looked like a nose with chalk stuck in it. I really don’t like my nasal tip either. Should I say I lost my own individuality..? Other people say it’s okay, that the nose doesn’t look obvious at all, that it turned out fine, and ask why I’m being like this, saying it’s really okay, but for me, it’s really not. I really feel like I’m going to lose my mind. Before surgery, I looked gentle, younger than my age, and cute, but after even correcting my upturned nose, my nose looks long, and all of that image is completely gone. My mom says I look pretty, but my appearance is really.. All I can do is cry. Everyone, what would you do if you were me? Other people say it’s okay, but when I look at it, it’s really not. And right before surgery, my mindset was that even if it looked like I had surgery, it would be fine as long as my face changed, but the shape is ruined, I don’t like it, and the fact that I had surgery itself makes me really want to hide, I can’t lift my face, I’m depressed and I want to die. At this rate, I really feel like I’m going to die. Today, I woke up at dawn while sleeping, and the thought I had was, 'Ah, I want to die.' I woke up because of that thought. This is not just mental stress. I told my mom that I was going to take out all this nose silicone and everything, and she said I was crazy and asked why I was doing this when it turned out fine. I’m really scared.. I want to go back to before surgery. After having surgery, I feel like I lost my own individuality. Right now, all I can think is that I should have lived being grateful for my original face.. Honestly, I don’t want revision surgery.. I want to go back. I had the nasal bridge and nasal tip done, septal cartilage, and upturned nose correction. For now, I live outside Seoul, I’m a college student, and the hospital is in Seoul, so it’s hard to visit in person and consult with the director. I wrote a consultation post to the hospital asking the director. Looking at posts here, people say it’s better to remove it quickly if you’re having removal surgery, but I’m a college student right now Even if I remove it, I think I’ll have to do it during summer vacation.. Will there be a very big difference? Do most hospitals do removal for free? I asked the director how much the removal cost would be.. Was that a good question to ask? I’m worried that the director will look down on me and just give me a careless, rough consultation... And after removal surgery, how long does it take to return to my original nose?