2 months after nose surgery... I’m going crazy wanting to remove it

It’s now been 2 months since my nose surgery. I had 4 mm silicone, and septal cartilage plus costal cartilage were used. Originally, we were only going to use septal cartilage, but during surgery they said there wasn’t enough septal cartilage, so they used costal cartilage. I don’t know where it was placed. These days I feel like I’m going to get depression. No, I think I already have depression. Whenever I look in the mirror, I only cry, and I’ve become so sensitive that I fight with my husband every day. I don’t go outside and only stay at home, and I feel like I might do something serious at this rate. They made the glabella too high, and maybe they pulled the columella out too much too; it looks like a witch nose. When I look in the mirror, it’s somewhat okay, but when I take photos, all I can see is my nose. The nasal dorsum looks white, my nose looks like it’s separate from my face, and I just cry I’m dying to remove it. I have to wait until 6 months, but I don’t even know how I’m supposed to wait until then. Before surgery, when I was going around for consultations, one hospital told me not to have surgery... They said if you look at each part of me one by one, it’s just average, but when seen together, my face has good harmony... They told me not to have surgery because if I started changing one area at a time, the harmony would break... I should have listened to that. Now I truly regret it so much. I thought that because my nose was low, I would become prettier if I had surgery. But although my nose is higher now, it doesn’t suit my face at all. For people like me with a round face, round eyes, and a rounded nose, people who are overall round, I really think if you have surgery, only the nose will look separate... I truly think overall harmony is the most important thing. And what I’m curious about is, if I remove it, will my nose become even lower? If costal cartilage was used, can it not be removed? If the cartilage in the columella is removed, could the nose collapse? After my surgery ended, the doctor said my septal cartilage was very insufficient and my nasal cartilage was also very weak, so he had been worried my nose might collapse, but fortunately the surgery went well. I’m overseas right now, so I can’t even go around for consultations, and I’m going crazy. I wasted money, suffered, and I don’t know why I did such a crazy thing. I should have just lived with the face I was born with