In just 2 more weeks, it will be two months since I had it removed.. but there’s no change in my nose, so every day I feel depressed and even have bad thoughts. It’s really not like my whole life is over because of one nose, but I can’t even go outside, and it feels like everyone is only staring at my nose..
For those who had the support strut removed, does your columella move? Mine is still hard, doesn’t move at all, and the columella still protrudes like when I had the strut inㅠㅠ..
When I had the surgery, the shape of my ear also became deformed, so I had such a hard time, and these days because my nose is making things hard, I’m starting to worry about my ear again too.. It’s true that after plastic surgery, when I took photos and such, I looked prettier and my nose shape was pretty too, but because of the strut, my columella and nasal tip would have been hard for the rest of my life.. and when taking photos in light, the silicone showed so obviously, so only my nose bridge shone in a straight line. When I think about later on, as I age, my skin and everything will sag, but if only my nose looks glossy, I feel like nothing would bother me more than that. Of course, when I’m old, that will be a story for then, but anyway, I’d have to remove the implant eventually.. I probably wouldn’t be able to have revision surgery after several decades..
When I look at celebrities, there are so many people whose surgery turned out really well.. I guess I should just blame myself for having surgery in the first place.. My self-esteem has really hit rock bottom because of my nose. Somehow my nostrils are showing more and more, and my nasal tip still doesn’t move, so when I talk, it stays fixed in place.. Many people who had removal say that at 3 months, 6 months, the nose shape gradually changes. Will it really change?ㅠㅠ.. Since there’s no change, it’s so, so hard. If it keeps staying like this, I’m continuing to look into cartilage repositioning correction. I absolutely can’t put anything into my nose again, just repositioning the cartilage.. But that still means touching the nose again, so I think my nose will have a really hard time, and I feel like my nose will get biggerㅠㅠ My precious time, day by day, posting like this every day meaninglessly.. My friends go out, drink, and have fun, but at this age when I should be out having fun, taking care of my appearance, and experiencing many things, I’m just crying at home like this. I’m so, so grateful that many people in this community say kind things and encourage me, but the moment I leave the site, I just stare at the mirror again.. I wish people who had removal a long time ago would leave a post for people like me who are strugglingㅠㅠ.. I wonder if everyone has gotten better and just doesn’t come in anymore..
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