I’m curious

I also posted below saying it had been 53 days, but the computer at home is broken, so I can’t really check my post well I read many of the comments and I’m truly grateful. I have something I’m curious about. It’s really been 2 months now. I feel like giving up.. Reading your comments comforts me, but deep down I’m also worried, wondering if something really went wrong. At the hospital, they say swelling goes down differently for each person and that there’s no need to compare. And now I also think that even if I say anything, they’ll just say it’s swelling, so I should wait until the swelling goes down and then worry if needed.. If I had done it when I had plenty of money, maybe it would be different, but you all are really in the same position, so I think you’ll understand. If you spend a lot of money and there’s no effect, I really think there’s nothing more upsetting than that. Of course, there must be some difference compared to before. But I can’t even upload photos I’m just frustrated. What I’m curious about is, I originally used to stack about 2 pillows and sleep facing straight up. I originally couldn’t even use a high pillow and could only sleep lying on my side, but since the surgery I’ve been sleeping face-up with 2 pillows stacked. But now it’s been two months, so can I use a low pillow and sleep however I want? I’m worried that since the swelling still hasn’t gone down, it might swell more And when I yawn, the right side isn’t like that, but on the left side I heard a few clicking sounds, around the cheekbone area. Nothing went wrong or anything, right? Also, since I don’t really know, I’m wondering if the major swelling is actually all gone and what I’m seeing is cheek sagging, but I just don’t realize it.. But the hospital clearly said I’m not an older person, and young people don’t really get cheek sagging, and even if they do, it’s only very slight, but I’m worried. Also, because I’ve been lying around at home because of the swelling, I gained about 3 kg. Does that have anything to do with the swelling too? Still, even among overweight people, there are people with small faces, right? If I had surgery, it should have become smaller. Whether it’s becoming symmetrical.. My face shape was roughly like the celebrity Ahn Hye-kyung’s. So whenever I went for consultations, every hospital I consulted with told me not to do it But it’s not like it was a small and slim face. But I wanted my face shape and size after surgery to be like Kim Tae-hee or Kim Min-hee. Was that too much? Was I being too greedy..? Anyway, I’m upset in all sorts of ways. Even if I go to the hospital and talk to them, there’s no answer, and I feel like I’m going to get depressed. Of course, my face wasn’t square, and it wasn’t a large face, but since it wasn’t a small face either, if someone with an average-sized face gets surgery, shouldn’t the amount it gets smaller be fairly significant? It’s not like I had a really big face and asked them to make it too small in an excessive way..