Day 2 after surgery..

I had surgery on the 17th, and yesterday and today... is this day 2..? Or day 3?? I had cheekbone surgery, mandibular cortical bone removal, and chin surgery through intraoral incisions~ So fearless... really... I can’t believe I had such a terrifying surgery... honestly... I scare myself~ (So ignorantly, just wanting to become prettier, without even looking into the pain....) Ah~ it really hurts so much. The first night after surgery, I thought I was going to die because I couldn’t drink even a sip of water~ And.. for food, I could barely swallow porridge bit by bit. Everything feels so strange and painful, and I don’t know what’s going on... I keep feeling anxious........... Why didn’t the doctor tell me about all these things that can happen after surgery... A little while ago, I thought it would still be better to move a bit, so I got up and walked or moved around~ but I was startled because it seemed like a strange sound was coming from my jaw area~ a cracking sound~ ugh~~ it gives me chills! I automatically open my mouth to breathe, but even that is so hard.... Ah... am I the only one who can’t tolerate it well..?? Today I feel mentally strange~ I’m forcing myself to take medicine and trying to sleep, but when I lie down, my jaw area feels cold and sensitive (and my teeth seem to hurt too...) and it feels heavy and painful, so I can’t sleep~ And, and... I keep picturing tiny bone fragments clicking around in my head, and it gives me chills~ How long will it hurt like this? Feeling this depressed and in this much pain mentally... Is it just me? It seems like everyone else endures it well... My face is so swollen that I look like a monster, and I just want to sleep a little... What should I do.... I took the hospital medicine and Tylenol... lay down... then got up again because of those bone-fragment images~ How long do I have to endure before I can sleep and feel a little less miserable??? Today is day 2~3; will it get even harder from now on...?? Please say anything!!!