It's day 4 today.. sigh~

Today marks day 4~ I had double eyelid surgery.. I did full incision, with fat removal and removal of sagging skin... I wanted medial and lateral canthoplasty... but the doctor wouldn't let me... My eyes are already far apart, so I don't know why he wouldn't let me.... He said I shouldn't do canthoplasty if I want to raise my nose, so maybe he's trying to make me get my nose done... hahaha I went around places in Sinchon and Gangnam, but ended up having surgery somewhere totally random... hahaha Some people say that when they talk with a doctor, they get a strong feeling and decide to do it there.... For me, I just went around with my friend, looked at the price... and that friend said she got a strong feeling, so I just did it there together with her... Honestly, even now I don't really know whether it turned out well or what.... Yesterday and the day before I was incredibly swollen, but today it has gone down somewhat... Once the stitches are removed, will I look a bit more human~~ hahaha I'm going to get the stitches removed on Sunday.. I'm really looking forward to it~ I want to get them removed quickly, have the swelling go down soon, and go wandering around~~ My friend booked surgery on the same day as me, and when she came out she said... While lying there having surgery, she suddenly didn't want to live and wondered what on earth she was doing,.. (my friend was having revision surgery) I went in completely scared and extremely nervous, and of course I also... didn't want to live.... Even though I had been so nervous, later I think I completely gave up, thinking: they already cut open the skin around my eyes and spread everything apart~ what, am I going to say I don't want to do it now and run out with blood streaming from these eyes? After everything was done, when I stood up I felt dizzy~ the sky spun... I came outside and was listening to the explanation, and the ladies were telling me to open my eyes, close them, and staring at me like I was on display... sigh~ what a mess~ I think I'll never forget that feeling for the rest of my life... My eyes were closed, but the bright light in front of them dazzled me.... The snip-snip sound of scissors cutting away my flesh.... The feeling of blood running down my face... The smell like grilled meat when the fat was being cauterized.... -.-++ Anyway, right now I'm doing cold compresses, drinking pumpkin juice, and walking around for about 30 minutes in the cool evening... I really, really hope these become successful double eyelids~~~ Let's all get prettier together~~ hahaha