I'm so frustrated...

I had posted the photo and text below before... I’m so frustrated, so I’m posting again.... It has been 10 days since my surgery now.. The upturned nose coming down is really, day by day, seeming to come down little by little, so that part is okay, but the height I drew in the picture;; (I don’t know if I explained it properly...) there is still no sign of lowering.... It’s still totally Pinocchio... At the hospital they said a lot of the septal cartilage would get absorbed, so I’m waiting, but in my opinion it should go down by at least 2 to 3 mm... If you had tip surgery with septal cartilage and it has been over 3 months how much did the height I drew in the picture get absorbed..?............ If I wait a month or two, will it come down a lot...... Even today I’m not sleeping and only thinking about my nose................ And if time passes and it lowers a little but is still high, is re-surgery to lower that height simple My nose had a drooping tip, and they lifted the tip a little with septal cartilage and put a columellar strut in, but maybe because they only touched the tip, the bridge and the tip feel separate, like the tip is Pinocchio... My nose wasn’t a low nose to begin with either. I’m so depressed I can’t even meet my boyfriend.....My boyfriend comforts me by text or phone and says that with time it will become natural and asks me to show him my face, but I remember reading posts about boyfriends running away after seeing a messed-up surgery face, so I don’t even have the courage to meet him... Just by looking at it, it obviously looks surgically altered like Pinocchio, and when I asked if he could still go around with me like that, he texted that even if I had no nose he’d still go with me and asked if I didn’t trust him, but when you actually see it in person, my nose really is severe My younger sibling says I look like a foreigner...... I don’t want to show my face, but I miss my boyfriend so much.......... Ah......... It’s my boyfriend’s birthday at the end of this month.. I really hope it lowers by then... *I drew it in Paint, so the drawing is weird;; Oh, by the way, can I upload a drawing instead of a photo..?;; If I have to upload only photos, I’ll delete it right away...;;