埋没, inner corner, outer corner, lower corner (aka S-line)... Ahhh!!!!!

I nearly died, Even now, opening my eyes and using the computer is hard... Even though I have sagging eyelid skin, I just couldn't bring myself to do incisional surgery, so I went with buried sutures, 6 stitches,, Anesthesia --;; gasp,, it hurt so much I'm the type who isn't very timid, so I went in without thinking and did it on a whim, and I got completely wrecked. After the anesthesia,, buried sutures first,,, no pain. The inner corner,, that also wasn't a big deal. And for the outer corner and lower corner (S-line), they said they'd do sedation (this too was not just a sore arm feeling, but ,, wow,,, a weird kind of pain),, a little later I woke up and they said it still hadn't been done, because I had moved, I can't know for sure, but I didn't trust it, and then they were doing the scary outer corner and lower corner under local anesthesia,, I cried and screamed and put on a whole show, so the left side got finished, and I said I absolutely couldn't do it any more,, the right side was finished under sedation. I was really, truly shocked at how badly the nurse couldn't keep up; if I were the doctor, I wanted to hit her. My left eye became like a guinea pig,,, even now my eyeball is monstrously bad, the right eye is decent though, I was scared to look in the mirror after it was over, but now I have to apply medicine and put in eye drops, and honestly, just looking at the left eye makes me feel like I could kill that nurse, The doctor said,,, "You're going to want to swear at the staff,, so do a good job,," He really said that,, about a nurse,,, If the nurse can't keep up, lower-corner surgery is hard, the doctor said lower-corner surgery is a 50% assistant operation,, Having everything explained to you makes you feel like, "I could do this better too," I wonder if that makes sense When the doctor opens it like this,,, my eyes are (ah, this isn't painful after all) and then when the nurse follows and opens it (I,,, f***,,,) Even now it's horrifying, Please make lower-corner/outer-corner surgery under sedation for sure,,, don't get put through fresh torture like I did,,, But the doctor really did seem experienced,,, so I'll try to endure it, The conclusion is that they didn't make a cut, they just did buried sutures with 6 stitches, and slightly pulled out the original double eyelid into an out-fold (I had a natural double eyelid, but I only wanted to reduce the sagging-skin feeling a little,, I was scared of overlock marks) For the inner corner, I only wanted to remove the Mongolian fold,, (the stitch marks seem delicate) The lower corner and outer corner were opened a lot, so I'm not used to it now,, but the doctor said, "It absolutely won't stick back," so if it stays this big it will become huge eyes, My eyeballs protrude a bit, so they said S-line should work well,, but I'm a monster, so thinking about how I'll have to struggle alone for several days like this,,, feels endless, Ah, one question,, along the lower eyelash line there are stitches from the inner corner and lower-corner surgery,, I originally have a lot of lower lashes,, but somehow they seem to have disappeared,,, what if they don't grow back,,, I'm posting this long write-up hoping it helps, I got my information from this community too and had it done,, I'll update the progress and, as I take photos, I’ll post the process of becoming human again from a monster, Right now it's hard even to keep my eyes open,,, especially the left eye, that nurse!!!! It was truly a nightmare,,,,