Day 9 after removal..

I really kept lurking on this community every day, and after a lot of worrying I finally posted this. I had the implant removed because I felt like I was going crazy 20 days after my nose surgery. I originally had a slightly aquiline nose, so they used silicone for the glabella area and my own ear cartilage for the tip, but it was so wrong..... The glabella looked truly terrible, and maybe because they inserted the cartilage and silicone through my left nostril, if you look closely it’s crooked... to the point that people can tell just by looking at my face... So, anyway. It’s been 9 days since the removal, but even right after the removal, the tip was still blunt and pointed in exactly the same way. They clearly showed me that the ear cartilage and silicone had been removed, but the ear cartilage was much smaller than I expected. Then what on earth is this swollen foreign-body feeling making up the tip of my nose..... I thought about it.... is it the healing process after surgery? If that’s the case... then if I hadn’t had it removed, wouldn’t my cartilage itself have ended up being that small and my aquiline nose would have come back anyway???? Because it settles down... To get to the point, what’s driving me crazy right now is that the asymmetry on both sides of my nose is still continuing... The left side is a bit aquiline, the right side is a pretty nose.... Honestly, before surgery, I had no nose tip and it was blunt, and back then I did have an aquiline nose, but my tip wasn’t pointed and it felt natural like my own face. Now it’s pointed, and on top of that both sides are uneven, so it’s irritating. When I touch it, it feels hard and firm, and if this is the healing process for a wound....... I’ve lurked on this community a lot too, so I kind of got an idea, but I’m still anxious, and every day is upsetting.... The front view is honestly much better than before, and it has more dimension, but if I turn my head even a little, I really want to die.. Looking at people who removed it and have passed a long time, I don’t really see many comments on their posts.. I guess that means.. everything eventually returned to normal, right? I’d like to share with others who are having a hard time, and please let me know any information too~~~