I can’t take it anymore, removal one week ago,,, I have a question

After graduating from college and going on to graduate school, I had surgery this January with a fresh start. I had 2 mm silicone inserted into the nasal bridge and cartilage tying done (nasal cartilage). Actually, on the doctor’s recommendation, I also had the paranasal area and cat-eye done too As I was entering the 4th month, I had everything removed one by one. It was so uncomfortable and awkward,,, People around me also said the before was better, a lot of the time,,,-_ In the end, I’m planning to have my nose removed this time too. In bright places, silicone,,,,even social anxiety and depression The doctor said I should make it to 6 months, but if I remove it now, I probably won’t be able to come back until next year because of an overseas exchange program during this vacation For now, the doctor said the tip can’t be restored, and only the silicone can be removed,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I was devastated,, If only the silicone is removed, will I get a pig nose? (Isn’t the reason I can’t get a pig nose because of the silicone??) After surgery, my nostrils look more prominent, but I was told they’ll all settle down in about 6 months,,,, If the silicone is removed, won’t it get even more lifted? I really want my nose tip restored too, is it impossible in the first place, or can another hospital do it? I really hate this awkward feeling in my nostrils to the point I’m going crazy,, If there’s anyone who removed only the silicone under the same conditions as me, please share your experience