After going for revision consultations, over the past few days I’ve been worrying so much it felt like my head would explode, blaming myself, and chewing over the past so much that it felt like self-harm, spending an enormous amount of emotional energy. In the end, I felt that cosmetic surgery really is driven by desire, and I decided on revision surgery. I’m sure there are others like me, so I’m writing a few lines about my consultation rounds for revision surgery.
I went to two hospitals (ㅇㄷw, ㄱㄹ), and please read this knowing that I had an ultrasound done separately at each hospital.
ㅇㄷw – Director ㄱㅈㅎ I know there are two directors, but I heard Director ㄱㅈㅎ specializes in breasts, so I specifically requested him. I remember the hospital itself being rather crowded. But maybe because the front desk staff were busy, they didn’t feel very kind, though that’s subjective... so I let it pass (it may have been because the situation was busy). For the ultrasound findings, I was told there was both rupture and capsular contracture. They said the capsule would have to be removed, whether it was revision surgery or removal... The director seemed to recommend revision surgery a little more than removal because I’m young, and I hadn’t decided either, but honestly, because I still wanted breasts, I said removal was hard to even imagine, so I had the consultation for revision surgery. Since what I had before was Mentor Xtra, I felt burdened by using the same Mentor again, so we talked about Motiva. They said it would be done through an inframammary incision because that would make capsule removal easier.. Then I came out and had another consultation with the consultant. The director spoke in a very guiding way, but the consultant felt a bit mechanical in the consultation, so I think that was disappointing Still, I recommend the director’s consultation.. He explains well.
ㄱㄹ – Director ㅇㅈㅇ It’s a private clinic, so there is one director, and this place is a breast surgery clinic. Since I had already gone after hearing findings of rupture and capsular contracture, I think I went in feeling more resigned. Here too, they did an ultrasound, and I was told it was definitely capsular contracture and rupture, and because the capsule condition was very bad, it would need to be removed. Here too, they said removal through an inframammary incision would be safe, and when I mentioned Motiva, they said Motiva would be fine. The consultation with the director wasn’t long, but what I liked was that when I asked why capsular contracture and rupture had happened at the same time, he told me that usually capsular contracture comes first, and as that capsule thickens, there can be pressure on the implant, which can lead to rupture. And during a separate consultation, the consultant gave additional explanations with statistical data. Since I kept saying things blaming myself.. she said that the exact cause of actual rupture has not been identified as just one specific thing, but since implants are products too, there could be a defect? In other words, it could be that I just got unlucky with the part.. And in my current case, given that capsular contracture and rupture are together, and that the capsule condition is quite! bad!, it appears, as the director explained, that the rupture came because of capsular contracture... Anyway, it wasn’t due to poor management on my part or my fault, so I didn’t need to be so upset. Ah, but after hearing that, I cried... I was too embarrassed to tell people around me, but this is anonymous, so I’ll say it here. The consultant was startled and comforted me, telling me not to cry And I honestly said I couldn’t decide between revision and removal. I said it felt like my breasts were already ruined, but I couldn’t give up either; that so many other people live fine with them for 10 or 20 years, and I don’t know why this happened to me; that the first hospital said they wouldn’t even provide after-service, and I said all kinds of things before leaving... Thinking about it now, I’m sorry.. I think the consultation with the director was a bit short, but at ㄱㄹ I talked with the consultant for quite a while Part of it was because I was crying,, and then I barely pulled myself together, went to the bathroom, washed my face, and went home.... It’s really embarrassing.
After consulting at these two places, I spent several nights awake until dawn, worrying hard about whether to remove them or have revision surgery. In the end, I didn’t have the confidence to remove them.... I couldn’t do it... I felt like I would regret it so, so much even after removal. It’s not that I’m dissatisfied with my breast surgery right now; maybe it feels even more that way because I’m in a situation where I have no choice but to have surgery due to capsular contracture and rupture. There will probably come a time someday when I have to remove them, but I don’t think that time is now.. so I decided on revision surgery. If you don’t have the confidence to get back on the operating table and feel like you would be unable to endure it if this whole situation came back again and would be so distressed you might die, then removal is probably right. But if, like me, you absolutely cannot accept your flat, stuck-on-looking chest after removal, then I think revision surgery is right. There’s probably no correct answer anywhere... but that’s how I felt I hope this helps even a little when people here who have nowhere to get advice are making their decision! Everyone, don’t feel too bleak like I did I hope you stay strong, get through it well, and receive revision surgery at a good hospital. I’ll also get my mind together and come back after doing the revision well. I haven’t set a date yet, though If I get it done, I’ll come back to leave a review. Let’s all stay strong!! Let’s finish this damned revision surgery journey and be happy, everyone...