I had my silicone removed today.......... I’m really depressed...

Ever since I was young, I had a severe complex about my nose... The cost was so expensive that I couldn’t even think about surgery.... But through someone I knew, they said they would do it cheaply.... I went to XX Plastic Surgery near Sinsa Station and without even getting a proper consultation, they just said they would take care of it and make it pretty.. They put in silicone and cartilage.... That day, the clinic even forgot to give me the prescription, so at night my nose and ear hurt so much and I really suffered..... A few days after taking off the tape, I had my stitches removed and went to a freshman welcome party. In front of everyone, some male senior said, You raised your nose, didn’t you? When he said that, everyone around went, “Oh my”.... That much is fine.... Even after the stitches were removed, my face was more swollen than the day after surgery, and it was no joke... So in the end, today, on the 13th day after surgery, I went to the clinic to consult.... I went and waited about an hour and a half... The nurse unnies saw my face and were surprised, and the female managers were surprised too... Then a male manager came in and said inflammation had developed, so the silicone had to be removed. It felt like the sky had fallen.... During that time, every morning when I looked in the mirror, I even felt suicidal urges... That feeling of not wanting to live.... I don’t know if you understand.... After they removed the silicone, I lay on the bed and got an injection, and it really hurt. After surgery, my face was even more swollen than before, and even now while I’m on the computer, the gauze stuffed in my nose is soaked full of blood, and that’s not even enough, blood is dripping out....... I’m so upset right now... The money feels wasted too........ I don’t know what to do.... They removed the silicone but didn’t remove the cartilage. When my nose settles down, won’t it look strange? Those who have had silicone removed... After removing silicone, how long does it take for the swelling to go down... I feel like I’m going to fall into a slump for a while............