Please help me~

As of today, it’s exactly been 5 months since my nose surgery.. When I first had my nose consultation, I discussed getting silicone in the nasal bridge, tying the nasal tip.. and because my nostrils were completely severely round.. I also got an estimate and consultation for nostril reduction.. But when I lay down on the operating table, the doctor said that if we did the nostrils too, my impression would change dramatically, so I should think about it again.. I had already prepaid the surgery cost for all three procedures.. I was already anxious lying on the operating table, and when the doctor said that.. I got so scared that I decided to just do the nasal bridge and nasal tip tying, then decide on the nostrils later after the swelling went down.. He told me to think about it around roughly 6 months later.. But this time I ended up quitting the job I was going to, so I have a little free time.. And the swelling seems to have mostly gone down too.. so I asked the clinic that I wanted to have nostril surgery.. It was so hard to meet the director doctor.. One day they said the director went to a wedding.. another time they said he had something to do and left work early.. I thought this wouldn’t do, so I went directly to the clinic.. I waited for an hour, but couldn’t meet the director.. The office manager or whatever.. anyway, that clinic has someone who schedules surgery dates and things like that.. That person said surgery was possible, but they would have to schedule the date again, and told me to go home and they’d contact me within a week.. So I waited, but there was no call.. So I called again.. I said I was so-and-so who had come in then.. and asked them to please schedule the surgery date.. Then what they said was... the director had been admitted to the hospital, so only around the end of July could they schedule a date.. and that all clinic operations were paralyzed right now (that clinic only has the director doing surgeries) At first I really believed it.. but somehow I started feeling like they were avoiding me.. So the next day, pretending to be someone else, I called again and asked.. If I got a consultation now, could I have nose surgery in early July.. Then they seemed to look at a calendar and said it was possible, so I should come in.. I was dumbfounded.. What should I do? Honestly, I wasn’t disappointed with my satisfaction after surgery. But I had already paid the money.. and this made me feel like I was chasing them for a debt, so it was extremely unpleasant.. But if I end up getting surgery there again later.. I’m worried they might do something bad(?) to me, so I can’t even act according to my personality right now and I’m just stuck like this.. If they insist, “We told you to wait 6 months, so why are you doing this?” I won’t have anything to say either.. What should I do in this case? Should I just wait 6 months and go again.. Or if I confront them and say, wasn’t it a lie that the director was hospitalized.. would they refund me a certain amount? Right now, I feel like asking for that money back and going to another clinic to get surgery right away.. Ah.. just thinking about it makes me angry again.. Everyone, please help me.. If you were in my situation, what would you do?