Day 2 after nose surgery, recovering at home -_-)/

I can't believe I ended up getting nose surgery.. -_- Maybe it's because of all the years I lived without realizing my nose was low, and honestly, among cosmetic surgeries, it's true that I had a particular aversion to nose surgery. Because it's the most obvious. -_- I can't believe someone like me got nose surgery and is now recovering at home -▽- The area between my eyebrows is quite swollen right now, and since that swelling even affects the front of my double eyelid line, it looks like I got double eyelid surgery too. -_- My younger sibling keeps teasing me, saying it's scary. -_- They used ear cartilage, so my ear is wrapped round and round in bandages too. Honestly, because of this darn ear, sleeping is really uncomfortable. Even if I lie straight, the ear bandage touches, right? It doesn't hurt a lot, but I'm worried the wound might get aggravated, so I can't sleep. -_- My neck and shoulders keep tensing up -_- Even now my neck and shoulders are so, so stiff, ugh- Oh, and I'm not applying warm or cold compresses. The hospital also told me absolutely not to. They said it could affect the nose shape.. When I sleep, I prop myself up with the huge Hamtori cushion at home and sleep with my head raised about.. 30 degrees. What was even more distressing is that I actually have rhinitis- During surgery, they trim the nose hair and put cotton swabs inside the nose, right? I seriously almost died. -_- Since it's allergic rhinitis, once my nose gets stimulated, I sneeze like crazy. But right as the surgery was about to begin, a sneeze attack started.. -_- I absolutely couldn't hold it in, so I did one big sneeze! And then I held it in with truly desperate effort. It was the next biggest pain after the pain of the anesthetic injections. -_- Speaking of anesthetic injections, anesthetic injections. Really... It's such a shame that I can't just write a bunch of swear words here. -_- Really. They were absolutely something else. If I ever absolutely had to get nose surgery again for an unavoidable reason, I will definitely choose sedation anesthesia or general anesthesia. -_- If that's not possible, I absolutely won't do it. -_ It's not like they inject it just once; they inject it all along each part of the nose. Oh... seriously.. -_- Especially around that columella area, I think? When they injected near the nasal ala, it really made me faint. -_- Still, I didn't make a single sound. The doctor praised me so much -_- I stayed as silent as death throughout the surgery, but I was crying the whole time. My whole body was stiff, and only tears kept flowing -_- I was so, so scared. Really so, so scared I felt like I was losing my mind -_- After the surgery ended, I went to the waiting room and cried a lot. Trembling all over.. My mom was startled because she thought I was crying from pain, but when I said I was crying because I was scared, she kind of laughed at me -_- Ah- It's hard to become pretty- Being born beautiful must really be an incredible blessing. -_- I want the swelling to hurry up and go down, the shape to settle, and go out refreshingly just once-