Should I make up my mind never to get back on the operating table again....

After so much deliberation, I finally had it done today~ When I first went in for a consultation, maybe because I brought my baby with me, they said that if I did full incision, I might swell and scare the baby, so they recommended partial incision.. So I looked in this community too, and read lots of posts elsewhere, but people said partial incision also comes undone easily, so I was starting to change my mind toward full incision~!! Until last night, no, from this morning right up until surgery, I don’t know how much I agonized over it. Will it look pretty if I do it... what if it gets ruined.. all kinds of thoughts... My name was called and I went into the operating room~ The doctor held and drew the line for me more than ten times... When I said, please change me from partial incision to full incision~ the doctor checked the line and my eye condition and other things, then said that because I have a constitution that swells easily and I also have some fat, if I do partial incision there is a high chance it will come undone, so they would do full incision for me~!! I lay down on the operating table and had sleep anesthesia.. When I woke up, my eyes felt extremely heavy. But when I woke up and said, am I going home now~ they said the surgery hadn’t started yet..ㅡㅡ;; Then what did they do while I was asleep ???????????? So I wondered if I’d heard wrong and asked again. Is it all over?? Then they said no~ we’re about to start now. It was enough to drive me crazy~ I guess they did sleep anesthesia and some kind of painless anesthesia or whatever~~ So a few minutes later the doctor came and said we’re starting, and I felt my eyes being cut, then there was some papapak~ sound, and they were cauterizing, the nurse was diligently wiping with gauze, and the doctor said there’s more fat than expected~ I’ll remove some fat~!! Your eyes protrude slightly~ and they swell easily when you wake up in the morning, right~! I answered, yes~~!! When the papapak~ sound came from my eyes, that burning smell~!! On top of that, it even stung~~ ugh~~!!!! During surgery, they told me to sit up about six times~~ Sitting up and lying down~ they checked the line a lot~!! Even while lying down, open your eyes~ close them~ open~ close~! They checked the line extremely meticulously~ lol Because the anesthesia was wearing off, I was dazed and it was annoying and hard to sit up, but the nurse supported me from behind~ so it wasn’t too hard~! They removed fat... sewed the line~ you can feel everything~ When they sew on the inner side, it stings a little~!! After all the sewing was done, the doctor said, good~ and told me to look in the mirror. But I wasn’t as swollen as I thought~ I thought I’d be super swollen~!! Well~ it wasn’t extremely painful, but I don’t feel like I ever want to get on that table a second time~ for now.... But then, after doing one thing, now I want to do my nose too~ lololol Now maybe the anesthesia is wearing off, my eyes hurt so much and it’s kind of hard to keep them open~!! The clinic where I had it done said they try to minimize swelling, and the swelling really is less than I expected.. But maybe because I tensed up a little during surgery, I have a slight bruise. I went with my husband, and when he saw me come out... What, is that what you call swollen?? That’s what he said. I guess he also thought I’d be puffed up~~~ Before me, a student had it done and came out, and that student wasn’t swollen either~!! Anyway~~!!! I’m posting my surgery review today~ I’ll upload photos soon too~ lololol ^^*** Those of you with surgery coming up... I think you can just go with an easy mind~!!! Seriously don’t tense your body~ ^^ I hope everyone with surgery coming up gets pretty results~!!