It's been about a month since my nose surgery......

It's been about a month since my nose surgery~~ It did turn out pretty, but I'm honestly under so much stress~~ Because of that, I'm even showing slight signs of hair loss~~ What if someone touches my nose the wrong way and I end up needing revision surgery~~ I'm worried about revision surgery~ What if someone notices I had surgery~ My nose is so itchy I could die, but I can't even touch it...... I can't even pick my nose carelessly...... I can't put this stress into words... They say it takes 6 months to settle~~ What if the swelling goes down wrong and it becomes uneven...will the bruising definitely go away....what if something goes wrong and I have to get revision surgery~~ I think the thought I have most is, I should have just lived with the face I was born with~~ It did turn out pretty, but... It feels like it's not part of my body~~ Honestly, it doesn't feel very good~~ If I could turn back time, I wouldn't care about becoming prettier, I just want to go back to when I was comfortable~~ I guess I should think of this as punishment for being too greedy~~ Human desire is like that, right~~ The more you have~~ the greedier you get~~ Among cosmetic surgeries, I think nose surgery is the most dangerous and burdensome Sigh~~ I don't need being pretty or anything, I just want to be able to smile naturally like before~~ joke around making a pig nose and pick my nose comfortably, rub it hard when it's itchy~~ I want to go back to the natural one my parents first gave me~~ Why do we only realize things after something happens~~ There are people who have it harder than me, who are less attractive, and who struggle just to get through each day, so why didn't I feel that at the time~ Being pretty is nice too, but~~ whew~~ it's so uncomfortable~~