I got zygoma surgery today~

I had surgery a little after 10 in the morning and just got home... I did it with a minimal incision... I was admitted at 6 yesterday evening and got an IV,,, I should have slept well until morning, but I barely slept,,, My heart was beating like it was going to burst,, beating so hard it hurt,, It kept pounding, and even when I was about to fall asleep, it was so bad I woke up to the sound of my heartbeat... It was my first time under general anesthesia, so I was so nervous... What if I never wake up... Should I just not do it even now... It was complete hell.,... I have very severe hereditary hand tremors, and when I get nervous, even my head shakes.. When I get extremely nervous, trembling comes over my body like an electric current buzzing through it.. Anyway, I have a unique constitution.. I go to neurosurgery because of that.. They said it had nothing to do with general anesthesia,,, but still, somehow I felt anxious that if I was anesthetized I would not wake up..... Anyway, the next day,,, I washed up completely and went to the operating room~ I lay on the bed, and the nurse put an injection into the IV (probably an anesthesia injection?) I was extremely tense at that time.. To the point that the hand with the IV (was the other hand tied? it was fixed) was shaking wildly left, right, up and down,, It was not just my fingertips trembling, but my whole arm was shaking hard,, So I asked, please hold my hand, and then she held the tied hand, so I said no, please hold this hand, and I do not remember after that ㅡㅡ; I do not know if I woke up on my own or if someone woke me.. I do not think they shook me awake, maybe they spoke to meㅣ.... Anyway, at that moment, rather than being happy that I survived, I had no thoughts and was just half-asleep,, When I came to my senses a bit, my face felt tight, my lips had no sensation,, I was scared, so at first I did not look in the mirror either,, I just went right back to sleep,, and then about an hour later I woke up, went to the bathroom, sat down and watched TV,,, I was so bored,, When I looked in the mirror, first of all I liked that the 45-degree angle was gone,,, Even though I was swollen and puffy, the fact that the 45-degree angle was gone stood out clearly, hohoho. And the pain slowly seeped in Like I got punched once on each side of the face by Choi Hong-man? It aches and hurts,,, It is bearable, but anyway it hurts.... Before surgery, I thought, just let me wake up from anesthesia and I can endure all the pain, but once I actually woke from anesthesia, there was absolutely no joy about being alive, and I only cared about the pain lol. Still, I am glad I did not have a blood drain or urinary catheter. If I had those in, I would have made another huge fuss when they removed them,,, What I am worried about is removing the stitches,,, I am really extremely sensitive to pain, and I shake really badly lol, to the point it is funny,,,, Anyway, even someone like me got surgery, so those who are scared of surgery, do not worry... If I could do it, anyone else, no matter how fearful, can do it.. I can drink water from 8 o'clock... I am not hungry, and I do not really want water either,, but I am dying to smoke. Is there any way I can smoke just a little? Anyway, right now it is aching and throbbing,.now that I have done it, I feel relieved... I will post again next time..