In the end..

I did it After worrying for a month,, I lay down on the operating table with quiet expectations because I thought they were really good and had also heard they were famous.. I had a full incision with removal of sagging skin.. it wasn't ptosis surgery, but they said my eye-opening strength was weak, so I think they slightly tightened the muscle too..''';;; The anesthesia really stung.. But when they removed the fat, I really kept flinching It took about an hour and a half.. Honestly, rather than worrying about whether it would hurt or not.. I didn't easily decide on surgery because I was afraid the line or eye shape I wanted wouldn't come out.. But thinking about it now, I feel upset that they didn't show me a mirror even once (Maybe because I trusted the doctor too much, I didn't mention the mirror either.) After the surgery ended, half afraid of the basic line.. I only looked at my eyes myself after 3 hours.. But.. my worries were right after all.. I emphasized it so much.. The line and shape.. it feels like my opinion wasn't reflected, so I'm really upset... The middle part of my eyes seems too thick I wanted it to get thicker toward the outer ends, but they made it completely the opposite I'm really upset.. (Thinking about it now, I also wonder if this kind of line is the doctor's style) If I still don't like it after the swelling goes down, is revision possible??? And those of you who had surgery involving the muscle.. I have something I'm curious about.. Is it originally this hard to open your eyes?? The swelling is also so scary, (When does swelling go down in eyes where the muscle was tightened??) It's so hard to open my eyes.. and when I try to open them with force, it feels like something in my eyelids keeps rising up together? So if I strain too much, I feel anxious like something might burst;; Other people showed a lot of pupil even on the first or second day after surgery.. I understand I had muscle surgery so more of my pupils would show too.. but my opening strength still seems the same.. and maybe because of swelling, half my pupils are covered (When the swelling goes down, will more of my pupils show, or will it stay like this) Is this normal, or did I have a botched surgery?? Please give me advice, everyone