I had surgery today ㅠㅠ I went such a long, long way by bus and subway by myself. I met the director, finished the consultation, and went straight to the operating table. ㅠㅠ They didn’t even tell me whether it would be in-line or in-out, sob sob I lay down, and seriously, how should I say it, the backs of my knees felt weak? lol I was really shaking ㅠㅠ and sweating so much. Then they gave me the anesthetic injections, and honestly, people said the anesthetic shots hurt and all, but they were really no big deal. Just a sting..? About enough to make you grimace? That much. And then somehow.................................. It felt like they were cutting my eyes....ㅠㅠ Ah, hearing the sound made it scarier ㅠㅠ Just like people said! I seriously wanted to jump up and run out ㅠㅠ Only the eye area was anesthetized, so.. while fully conscious.. they were talking while doing the surgery.. lol it was driving me crazy. And then they said they were going to remove the fat.. This part was intense.. Even though I was anesthetized, it really hurt. I could feel it all, like cutting raw flesh. It really hurt. It really, really hurt so much. They were cutting the fat, and they told me to slightly open my eyes and look downward -_- A lump of fat above my eye lol I was totally shocked. Yellowish.. like phlegm? Something like that.. I was completely like, gasp.. Then suddenly what came to mind was......................... My left eye is still left.................................. lol Ah, thinking about it now, I don’t know how I endured it.. lol And then they started stitching! The thread, as expected.. was going back and forth, and from then on nothing hurt at all ^_^ The stitching didn’t hurt at all! By the time they stitched my left eye at the end, I had some composure.. lol I was much less tense too! And then.. they put bandages on, and on my way home.. the anesthesia slowly started wearing off ㅠㅠ It hurt whether I closed my eyes or opened them, and I really didn’t know what to do. It hurt so much I felt like I was going insane ㅠㅠ It’s really not that I’m especially sensitive to pain or exaggerating;; I took the bus and barely got off in front of my place, but the walk up to my apartment complex felt so, so long. To the point that I would rather have taken a taxi from that bus stop right to my front door ㅠㅠ The weather was insanely cold, my eyes hurt, and all I could see ahead was the ground.. Once I got home, I lay down and did cold compresses, but it still hurt a lot. lol Then I fell asleep, slept about 2 hours, and when I woke up, it was a bit better and bearable, so I’m writing this now lol Because of the bandages, I can’t even see what my eyes look like. Sigh! It’s so frustrating!! I hope they turn out pretty ㅠㅠ
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