I want to graduate from the big-bust older-sister algorithm now

D-1, finally tomorrow! (heart pounding) I never dreamed that I would actually get breast surgery, but after making this decision, here I am on the night before surgery. I searched online and went around in person, thinking about what the hospital's aftercare is like, whether I’m in a location where I can attend that aftercare properly, what the director’s aesthetic sense is like, what kind of philosophy they have, and so on. After a lot of thought, I chose this hospital. ​I’m planning to get Motiva 300 cc and nipple surgery together, and I was consulted on a subfascial hybrid method. ​Honestly, part of me still thinks, I can’t believe I’m doing something like this... but the thought of, “You only live once, so let’s live beautifully!” played a big part. ​It’s true that I’m worried first. Even now, I still have thoughts like, since there’s still a chance, should I just run away? lol I’m a coward lol I’m scared of pain lol I’m still even scared of injections lol Can I do this? lol A real woman faces things head-on lol When I watched the director’s supportive video message, they told me to eat well, so for my last supper, I ate Supreme Yum Yum Chicken. .... Right now, my inner self is basically main-character-in-The-Last-Leaf material. Even though I’m like this, thankfully, I have someone beside me who will take care of me.... I also have the money I worked hard to save.... I thought now was the time I was most prepared, so I had the consultation and made the reservation. Before booking, the surgery felt vague, but after booking, it became concrete. (Even now, the day before surgery, it still doesn’t feel real) (But I’m still making sure to eat things like chicken properly) I think I watched five thousand YouTube videos. Doctors’ YouTube videos, reviews from people who had breast surgery, I watched everything I could find. Then videos of big-bust older sisters kept showing up in my algorithm. These sisters are craaaazy~~~~ Does everyone who is thinking about breast surgery go through this? Now I’m ending the time when I only watched other people’s reviews and lived vicariously through them, and now that I’m becoming the one writing the review, it feels really new. I’m just imagining what I’ll look like. How satisfied I’ll be with myself.... How painful it will be... Whether I’ll have side effects too... I just hope I don’t regret my choice. As much as I desperately wanted this, I sincerely hope the surgery ends well and that recovery goes smoothly. I want the whole process to wrap up well, so I can confidently wear pretty clothes with full confidence. (V-sign) ​I’ll go get it done safely tomorrow and come back. If you send messages of support, they’ll truly give me so much strength. Let’s come back alive!