I’m so dumbfounded right now that I’m even having suicidal thoughts

A while back I had facial fat grafting, stem cells and all that. I had that done once. You’re supposed to do it in two rounds, the first and the second, but I only did the first because I smoked. So there’s a plastic surgery clinic in Bupyeong that I’m close with, and this time I booked my nose surgery there. I booked nose surgery, but... At the consultation they clearly said that they would put silicone in a certain part of the bridge, and underneath that they would put human bone, rib bone? They said it wouldn’t be Medpor. And then the Infi? The thing taken from the navel. They said they would put that in and do the surgery. My nostrils are big, and the tip is round and wide, so I was always dissatisfied with my nose tip. It was the kind that looks slightly upturned too. But my bridge did have some height. It wasn’t the kind of nose with no bridge. Also, since they’re people I know, they said they’d put back for free the facial fat that had been lost from the earlier fat grafting, and asked me to let them upload the photos to their homepage. So I said, ah, okay~ and gladly agreed. But I work at a bar.. I had been waiting 4 years for this nose surgery, so I took a week off from work. After getting hard-won permission and spending all my pay, on the day of surgery I went into the operating room, and then they said they couldn’t do the fat today. If I wanted it done, I’d have to make another appointment because of the schedule. ㅡㅡ ..I was speechless. It’s not like I’m someone who can just sit around waiting for surgery. I’m busy trying to make a living too ㅡㅡ... Then they started surgery without even drawing the design on my face... They said they’d invited some doctor, someone who was good with noses because of my nose. I was under anesthesia, so I don’t even remember who that person was. Anyway, the surgery ended, and when I woke from anesthesia and looked in the mirror, I was furious. They only focused on the bridge and tip and didn’t touch the nostrils at all. They had said they’d remove some fat from the tip and make it sharper, but this was just basically the kind of surgery you could get at a neighborhood clinic for 1 million won. On top of that, even though I said my bridge wasn’t a nose with no bridge, they inserted 2 mm of silicone ㅡㅡ Are they joking? ㅡㅡ So I got upset. In the end I argued with the director. He’s quite a bit older, and I’m 21. I know it was rude, but this isn’t treating a customer like a joke either. It’s not like I came to get a mole removed, and this is a matter of putting a knife to a woman’s face.. I had agonized and waited for 4 years over this nose surgery before deciding on it. Then he said, then we’ll take it out, just remove all the implants, isn’t that fine? ㅡㅡ That only made me even angrier. I was trembling a lot while lying on the operating table because I was so scared. And then they say they’re going to take it back out? Also, I heard that once a nose has had an implant inserted, even if you remove everything later, it doesn’t go back exactly to how it was before. I’m furious. Was I wrong to complain at the hospital right now? I really said dozens, hundreds of times that I was extremely stressed about the nose tip, and the friend who came with me said the same, but it isn’t written in the chart. Then, because I kept making a scene in front of the other patients with my mom, they said they’d do it next month instead. As for the nostrils, they’ll see how the nose turns out and if I’m not satisfied... ㅡㅡ Are you kidding me? They should have done it together from the start.. If they had just done what the patient wanted, they wouldn’t have had to hear that kind of thing. They don’t even do what I ask them to do.. I really, honestly wanted to kill him. I’m still crying nonstop. Even though they kept saying not to cry because the blood vessels will dilate and keep bleeding, I can’t hold back how wronged I feel. So the head manager there keeps saying I’m pretty, that it’s fine, and so on, but I ignored all of it. I ignored everything and said, what is this, if it was going to be like this I wouldn’t have done it. A friend saw me after the surgery and said, From what I had heard, during surgery it looks extremely high, but as it settles over time it becomes lower, right? ㅡㅡ When the friend looked at it, they said, what exactly did you have done?.. It looks the same?.,. Actually the friend who got forehead filler yesterday is much more noticeable. I really want to die right now. No, I want to kill that director. What kind of extortion scam is this? Is this a pediatric clinic, internal medicine, or orthopedics? Are they playing around with someone’s face? Because I kept getting angry, they said I should go to another hospital for treatment starting tomorrow ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ Then they said, or should I go to your house and treat you there? They’re saying that. Seriously, no joke, my hand almost went up. I was so angry that I sat there and then stood up. What the f*** is this? I swear, there’s all kinds of crazy stuff here. I know I was wrong for cursing, but if some woman said that about her own nose, that before and after are not even 0.01 percent different, who would pay money to do it? They told me that I need to go to another hospital and somehow do this and that. If I bring back some kind of note saying that what they did was wrong, they said they wouldn’t charge me. I wouldn’t pay either, I shouldn’t pay, have they lost their minds? If you were in this situation, what would you do? I’ve only just come out after surgery, and really ㅡㅡ I know more than a dozen people around me who have had surgery, but this is the first time I’ve seen anything like mine... Please help me. I really feel like I’m going crazy. Before, before the surgery, I had uploaded photos here in this community.