It's been 6 months since surgery, and for those 6 months I basically lived at home Even when I go outside, I always wear a hat These days, I sometimes gather courage and go out without a hat When people passing by on the street are far away, it's okay, but as the person on the opposite side gets closer and closer, and as their face looks closer, I think my face must look closer to them too so I walk around with my head down. How long will I be like this ㅜㅜ About three months after surgery, even though my friends said it was okay and didn't look obvious, my mom and family pointed out the strange parts and told me to get it redone Now I'm holding out, thinking I won't touch it again, so these days they don't say things like that, but sometimes my mom just stares at my nose and when I ask why, she says wasn't it better before... I can't go back to my old nose now, but really.. stress every single day Since I'm not doing any social life at all, it's been so long since I went outside and confidently lifted my face... I end up going out only at night Because I don't want to touch it anymore, I decided firmly to trust my friends and not do it.. but it keeps bothering me. What my family said was probably definitely true, but I really don't want to touch it anymore.. I can't do this or that.. Before surgery, I thought as long as it's not this nose, that's all that matters. Even if it's a little weird, I can walk around confidently but during the period when I was receiving treatment and had something attached to my nose, suddenly everything was removed and my whole nose was visible, and maybe my mind got weaker in that time.. I can't go out with my bare face, that's how it is Is there anyone who has been like me? It feels like I'm receiving a lifetime's worth of stress ㅠㅠ At home, they scold me more and more every day for not working and just playing around at home, and I also want to go out, have fun, and work, but I'm scared to look at people, and I tremble thinking they might look at my face and think I'm ugly. If someone looks once and then turns their head to look again, I wonder if they keep doing that because my nose is weird.. I really hope I'm the only one thinking like this because I've lost my mind I'm trying to believe it's nothing and that it won't be nothing, but I can't pull out people's thoughts and look at them I don't have the courage for interviews or anything, and each day just keeps passing by.. Has anyone gone through something like this or overcome it?? Sometimes, very occasionally, I used to have moments where I thought, so what, whether it's weird or not, I just don't have to care; it just seems like my old nose, so going out should be totally fine, and I think I could look people straight in the face but it was night and I was too lazy, so I didn't go out. But these days, even moments like that don't come anymore ㅜㅜ It's hard
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