After much deliberation, I’m removing it.

I live in Jeju, so a few days ago I packed my things and went up, but my mom tried so hard to stop me that I couldn’t get it removed and came back down. But the foreign-body sensation I started feeling hasn’t gone away at all. Every day is miserable. I wake up every 30 minutes. I haven’t had deep sleep for a month. Every 30 minutes I wake up, look in the mirror, sleep again, look in the mirror, and I was becoming a crazy person... My friend and my family said I wasn’t in my right mind... I just couldn’t go on like this, so I scheduled the removal. Monday at 5. I went to a hospital with a banner ad, and they really did a good consultation. But the removal cost was a bit high.. So I’m going to do it at the hospital where I had it done. I also feel sorry to my parents, and I’m leaving the septal cartilage and removing only the silicone. The reason I was going to do it and then stopped was that even though I said I wouldn’t care if I became ugly after removing it, I still had an expectation that maybe I might look better than now (because the area between my eyebrows is high). Suddenly I thought, ah, if I’m still this obsessed with my appearance, life after removing it will be even harder. I thought, let’s not gamble with my life.. My parents also stopped me.. But after I stopped and came back, the foreign-body sensation continued. Not a single minute or second feels happy.. I had osteotomy, hump correction, and they say the silicone is 1.5, but other places say it looks like 4 mm. I know that if I remove this, the shape will become very hideous. I also know that I’ll need revision surgery. They say many people become depressed after removing it. Even so, instead of a fake face, I want to live with my real face. I hate the constant feeling that someone is pressing inside my nose. I don’t want to feel like my nose keeps changing after I sleep. It’s been quite a while since I joined this community. Looking at removal reviews is scary, but every time my body feels unwell, every time I get stressed, my nose develops problems... I can’t laugh freely, I can’t eat well, and I can’t exercise. I want to stop living like this now. I’ll leave a review. I gained hope from reading reviews, so I should give it too.