Posting my review at 1 month and 24 days after removal

I’m leaving a post because I’ve been getting a lot of messages; If you search my posts, you’ll know.. I had it removed 15 days after surgery, and when it had been a month, I wrote that I was having a hard time because I was obsessed with my nose.. These days I’m going outside. The indented area of the wound on the columella is the same. As for the wound scar... if I apply primer, BB cream, concealer, and powder, it’s not very noticeable. And around a month and a half, my nose was a bit soft, but these days my nose is really getting much harder.. I’m also taking Rizaben three times a day without missing doses. I hardly do warm compresses anymore; when I wash my face I use warm water, and whenever I think of it during the day, I knead and massage my nose; The reason I started going outside was.. My friend came to my place at night because they were worried about me, and we were talking, and they said they couldn’t really tell that my nose had changed- - I thought maybe it was because it was dark at night, so I stayed shut in again, but once my friend suddenly came by in broad daylight with a cake because it was my birthday (I was looking in the mirror and crying again..) But they said it really wasn’t noticeable unless someone deliberately lifted my head and looked up close- -... Of course, I went out with full makeup on.. Without makeup, it’s very noticeable;; So... I thought, ah, is it really okay... and little by little, I went out near my house.. wore a hat at night and went to a cafe.. Then I started going downtown too. Of course I keep massaging and kneading my nose, paying attention to it, and looking in the mirror all the time. So I’m only meeting close friends. My nostrils are a bit uneven because of scar tissue, but I’m not worrying about it. Recently, as I’ve been observing my nose... from the front, my left nostril shows more.. so when I massage, I stroke that side downward more. And my nose feels a bit blunt;.. my nose pores are totally wrecked.. I am worried that my nose keeps getting hard now.. But I have to wait longer. I’m not sure about my nose being lifted or anything like that. One nostril showing more could be because of scar tissue and contracture.. but I’m trying not to worry too much about it... Since it’s not disfiguring enough for someone to say something harsh... I’m just going to live with it With time it should come down... I really think if you stay only at home... becoming mentally drained is just a matter of time... you think all kinds of thoughts.. and look only at your nose. .. After meeting friends a bit and going outside... my mind feels a little more at ease. Of course, I can go around like this because my nose hasn’t severely shrunk, lifted, or collapsed.. The columella area still bothers me... but I’m going to live thinking even this much is something to be thankful for... as long as it doesn’t get worse from here.. I really won’t be greedy anymore I’m going to live gratefully in this current state.. I’ll be thankful for being able to go outside, work part-time, and go to school ahh When I was shut in at home, my nose really looked strange to me, but because my friends kept telling me it was okay, not noticeable, and the same, I started thinking... is it really like that? Is it not noticeable? Really, everyone... don’t worry too much.. meet close friends and at least talk with them.. If it feels burdensome, go out at night. I really ended up going outside because of my friends... With the belief that it will gradually get better, I’m kneading my nose again... I’ll post another update next time~~