Those considering double-jaw surgery, please read this together^^!

Hello, I’m someone who had double-jaw surgery on October 12.. Right now I’m living half in anticipation and half in worry because of double-jaw surgery, Ever since I was young, my concern was that I was a big-headed princess.. Whenever people looked at my face, they teased me saying it was big, During puberty, that always hurt my feelings, So as soon as I turned 20, I did my jaw and cheekbones while working various part-time jobs.. But when other people saw me, they said your eyes, nose, and mouth are fine, you would be pretty if you just did facial contouring.. I had done it in my own way though.. so upsetting, right..? So after thinking it over, I saved money from part-time jobs for 2 years and decided on double-jaw surgery, Honestly, my occlusion was not even malocclusion, <though I don’t have professional medical knowledge..> I decided on double-jaw surgery to make my face smaller, correct asymmetry, and because I had buck teeth I really thought I was someone who tolerated pain well, But after the surgery ended and I came to the recovery room, the bleeding wouldn’t stop.. I was so sad.. Blood kept coming out from inside my mouth, even though a blood drain tube was inserted.. My hospital gown was soaked with blood to an unimaginable extent, and even suctioning with the suction device didn’t work The doctor, unable to just watch, said I had to go back into surgery to stop the bleeding.. tremble tremble... I really wanted to die then... Ah, I regretted it then. Honestly, my mother doesn’t know I had surgery. I did it secretly.. But one week before the surgery, my mother called me and said, in her dream, my face was about half black and wrapped in bandages, and 8 people were taking me away.. I wondered if I was being punished for ignoring my mother’s words and having the surgery.. After a lot of emotional turmoil, the surgery ended and I came to the recovery room, When I got to the recovery room, I was dizzy and they said I had to exhale the anesthetic gas, but breathing was difficult, the blood drain tube in my mouth felt ticklish, and I was craving water so badly... They said I had to drink water only after a few hours had passed after surgery.. Ah.. I thought I would have no wish if I could just drink water more than anything else,, So after a few hours passed, the hospital room was well set up! I barely endured the time in the hospital room while watching TV, While enduring it, I deliberately did abdominal breathing, They said the anesthetic gas was inside and I had to pass gas, I really did exactly what the nurse said, I passed gas and peed too!! Ah happiness >_< But people are so fickle; then I thought I would have no wish if only they would quickly remove the blood drain tube... They removed the blood drain tube the next day,@_@ Once they removed the blood drain tube, ah, ah, I could picture food right in front of my eyes,, I endured 3 nights and 4 days in the hospital like that and was discharged on October 15 For those really worrying about doing double-jaw surgery.. Still, I do feel proud as I see myself improving day by day,,,, but the regret is still big,, For now, I just really, really want to eat rice Photos.. I’ll upload them soon!