I really want to have it removed, but people around me are stopping me. My family asks if I'm crazy, saying it looks fine, why am I doing this.. My younger brother says I got prettier than before, so why remove it, and that I've lost my mind.. No one understands how I feel. My friends say if I remove it, my nose will look even stranger, that I'm crazy and not in my right mind. Honestly, to other people, it may look better than before, but to me, the impression of my face has changed way too much (especially the nasal tip; the doctor lowered it a lot, lowered the columella, and my nose became longer I wonder if they lengthened it.... ) When I stand in front of a large mirror, the nasal tip is long, so my face looks completely monstrous. If I keep covering only the nasal tip, it looks okay, but when I look at my face overall, because of the nasal tip, it looks like one orc is standing there. Honestly, to my eyes, I look uglier than before. I feel like I'll die because I want to go back to my original impression. After the surgery, my confidence dropped. I'm a college student, and every day during class, honestly, I don't think I've ever properly listened to a lecture.. My family says I'm crazy.. It's not even their face, but it's the face I have to see for the rest of my life.. I feel like I absolutely can't live with this face, but they keep not understanding. I really want to die, feel like I'm losing my mind, and at this rate I really feel like I might develop schizophrenia. I have no motivation for life. And why is the hospital where I had surgery so far away.. I live outside Seoul, sigh, seriously.. Even if I want a consultation, I can't just go whenever I want, and I really don't want to live in this world anymore. Nasal bridge, nasal tip, septum, correction of an upturned nose. They touched so much of my nose, and I wonder if I can go back if I remove it. I don't want revision surgery either. Honestly, even if I were to have revision surgery, I don't have any belief that it would be 100% successful. I just want to live with my natural face, the way it was without surgery, so badly I'm going crazy, seriously...ㅠㅠ
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