My face got ruined after revision eye and nose surgery

I had revision eye and nose surgery on April 20, but maybe they raised my nose too much; my nose became crooked, and there was a visible boundary and indentation between the nasal tip and bridge. When I said it looked sunken, they said it would be better to correct it quickly, otherwise I would have to wait 6 months, so just two days after getting the stitches removed, I had a second revision nose surgery again on May 8. Ah~~ it was so hard. I had just gotten the stitches removed and was finally able to breathe, then surgery again But the second surgery went even, even, even more wrong The first surgery at least had an okay nose shape. After the second surgery, the director said they lowered my nose a bit. Two weeks later, when the second splint was removed and I looked in the mirror, I wanted to die It had become a completely different nose from the one after the first surgery. If it had only become a different nose, that would at least have been somewhat fortunate. Unfortunately, my nose is a bulbous nose. Nothing improved at all. It only got worse. The indentation in my nose was still there, my nose was upturned, and my nasal alae were uneven I said I’d write briefly, but it got so long. Fortunately, only the indentation in my nose! just that one thing improved. They say everyone is asymmetrical. So they say the crookedness can’t be helped. At first, my columella was almost lying down? slanted? something like that. Now the columella is standing up ㅡㅡ They said the collapsed nasal ala seems to be because of scar tissue? Ah~~~ it seems like they don’t really know~~ As for the upturned nose, they said that happens when doing a bulbous nose nasal tip, sigh~~ Both sides of my nose are different. It has now been over 3 months. Since then, I quit my job and have been staying at home. People’s words of comfort hurt me At first it was so hard. Even now, I sometimes get choked up. It seems it’s been over 3 months since I met acquaintances. I guess it was my greed wanting to become a bit prettier. I only regret it. I shouldn’t have done it I wish I could turn things back.