It's the last day of week 3 after surgery.. Tomorrow will be week 4..
I always went around covering my cheekbones, so people around me probably don't even know I had cheekbone surgery, but I'm very satisfied with the cheekbones.. Though it does bother me that my chin stands out more and my face looks longer lol
The problem is.....my eyes....
For my eyes, I really, really regret why I did them, and up until last week I was depressed to the point of feeling like depression... Everyone I know asks why I did it.. says before was better... and I also think the same as the people saying that, so it hurt a lot... It still hurts now...
One side was an inner double eyelid that was almost invisible, and the other side had a pretty double eyelid... Since they were uneven, it bothered me so much that I was going to get double eyelid surgery.. But when I was actually about to do it, I wanted the line a little bigger than my original pretty double eyelid line.. On top of that, the front of my eyes wasn't even that stuffy-looking... I regret being tempted when they recommended epicanthoplasty.... It was greed... It's already too much because of the epicanthoplasty, but the front line starts from above. A very low outfold line?? An infold suits me...ㅠㅠ
Thinking about it now, if I hadn't done epicanthoplasty, hadn't touched the eye that was already pretty, and only matched the eye with the inner double eyelid to the pretty eye, maybe I would have gotten a satisfying result... that's what I think ㅠㅠ
This weekend I'm going to have only the buried sutures removed... I want epicanthoplasty reconstruction too, but that can only be done after 6 months..
First, I feel like I can live only if I get rid of at least this burdensome, awkward double eyelid that has none of my old self...
Every single day is really... so hard...
Other people all get prettier when they do double eyelid surgery, so I wonder why, of all people, I ended up like this ㅠㅠ
They say it's because of swelling and to wait a little longer... but if I keep waiting, I really feel like I might die... Before, I had a youthful, kind, cute image,
but now I look older and harsh... awkward eyes that don't harmonize with my face...
If I undo the buried sutures, will I end up regretting it even more? ㅠㅠ Please, I don't want to be hurt anymore ㅠㅠ
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