I had nose surgery

Two years ago, I had surgery with silicone for the nasal bridge and ear cartilage, but about a year later, the nasal tip area protruded slightly like a pimple, so I went to the clinic and they said it was cartilage show-through. After thinking and thinking about it, I went to another clinic and had revision surgery, and it has been a little over 4 months. I had silicone for the nasal bridge, donated costal cartilage tied, and cadaveric dermis for the nasal tip, but this time the pain was so severe for 3 and a half months, and the runny nose was extremely bad. Even now, when I eat, mucus gathers on the roof of my nose and flows down. And when I shine a flashlight inside my nose, a white liquid comes out when the mucus flows. I really feel like I’m going crazy and losing my mind, and I feel like I want to die. Of course the nasal obstruction is severe too. Of course I went to the clinic where I had the surgery so many times that I practically wore down the threshold, but they treated me like a difficult customer and said I was sensitive. My nostrils are uneven, my nasal tip is asymmetrical, and the nasal tip is also blunt. I hate it so much I feel like I want to die, and even my nasal function is like this, so I am enduring each day feeling like I really want to die. Before the surgery, and even after my first surgery, I had absolutely not even 1 bit of rhinitis or runny nose. But after revision surgery, what is this? Still, in Seomyeon, Busan, the representative director himself confidently boasted a lot that he does the most nose surgeries, so I trusted him and left it to him. Now I regret it so much that I wonder why I had surgery at that clinic. Because of the pain and runny nose, I quit my job and I can’t go out or meet acquaintances often. The foreign body sensation is also so severe, and when I explain it, the nasal tip feels so heavy and hard, and it still feels tight. My feeling now is that even if the shape is like this, I would ask for nothing more if only my nasal function would improve. It seems like that clinic does a huge number of nose surgeries, so why did they do mine like this? How should I fight against the clinic from now on? As time passes, will my nasal function get even a little better? I really feel like I want to die