I had the splint removed today after revision rhinoplasty and I seriously want to die

Sigh, I had my first nose surgery in high school and it went badly, so right after the semester ended I booked a hospital famous for revision rhinoplasty. It’s seriously really, really famous. During my first surgery my nose became crooked to the right, so with crooked nose correction, short nose correction, nostril reduction and this and that, it came out to about 7 million won. Sigh, since it’s my nose, I didn’t want to rely on my parents, so I paid for my first cosmetic surgery myself, and the revision surgery cost was money I saved while going to school, working part-time, not buying things I wanted. I was really looking forward to it,, What I felt after this revision surgery was that they used autologous rib cartilage so they removed rib cartilage,, and since I live in the provinces I had to keep going back and forth, it was so hard that I wanted this cosmetic surgery to be the last one, but when the splint was removed I was seriously shocked. The director said my nose was crooked to the right, so he said he would straighten it, but when I looked in the mirror this time my nose was completely crooked to the left. It’s just seriously crooked at like 45 degrees ;; The director says let’s watch it, but will this really straighten out ;; During my first surgery, the severe rightward crookedness did gradually improve, but sigh, I’m so fucking angry and I keep thinking why does this only happen to me. They didn’t remove all the stitches so I’m going back to the hospital next week, and then I’m going to say something. I feel like because I’m young, they talk to me in a careless way while trying to make it seem plausible. I’m mentally exhausted and I just can’t even face people, and I’m also worried I’ll make my parents worry for no reason. I’ve already had revision surgery on my eyes and nose now, this is the 4th time.