I seriously want to die because of my double eyelid surgery. What should I do?

After getting double eyelid surgery, my life has become a mess 6 years ago, I had double eyelid surgery with natural adhesion, but the line became too thin, so I had revision surgery to raise the line, but the lines came out very uneven So I had the buried sutures released and had surgery again 2 months later (at the same clinic) It’s now been a little over 6 months since the surgery But my eyes feel extremely tight They feel so tight, and sometimes they feel numb, like the blood isn’t circulating, my eyes always feel heavy, and they feel so tight, painful, and distressing The clinic told me it will definitely get better after 1 year and told me to wait, so I’m waiting, but this feels like something that absolutely can’t get better In my opinion, it seems like either the fixation was done too strongly or it happened because I had surgery again after only 2 months... The director says that’s not it, and says they didn’t fix it strongly? From the very day of this AS surgery, it felt extremely tight, unlike what I felt on the day of my previous surgery The clinic talks as if I’m having a rejection reaction to the thread, and says that even if they release the buried sutures and redo the surgery by any method, it will still feel tight and hurt.. But considering that I had natural adhesion before too, and even when I had revision surgery at this clinic I was fine, and then after the AS they released the buried sutures and operated again after 2 months and this happened, does that make sense? I don’t know if I should keep waiting like this, or go to the clinic that keeps avoiding me and demand that they release it...