Looking forward to my third nose surgery...

I had my nose done when I was twenty and knew nothing My face is also slim, and my eyes are rather distinctive, but because of my bulbous nose I was so stressed out. My nose is just big So I think I went to an event at one of those apps... But the coordinator there gaslit me, saying all the doctors on my other consultation list were incompetent. The director looked at my face and said that if I wanted to fix the bulbous nose, I had to lower it, and that way it would look slimmer, so I trusted them and went ahead. But I have thick skin and a high bulbous nose, and people always said my nose had been high from birth. They put in 6 mm of silicone and made it into a completely upturned, semi-ramp nose. Every day was depressing. Instead of hearing that the surgery went well, I got a lot of silent sympathy. My nose also felt tight... That place really pursued a flashy look, and all my life people had said my face was slim and my chin was sharp and pretty, but the director there said my face was broad and flat. So if you want to become a surgery-style beauty, and the marketing says it is flashy, filter them out. Anyway, after 6 months I paid only the anesthesia fee and had everything removed, and now I'm preparing for my third surgery. I don't want a flashy nose, so I said I want something natural and even if it has no dramatic effect, I want only a small effect, so please reduce the nasal volume and do not raise the bridge. Out of 7 places I visited, 3 refused surgery. One place said to keep it as high as before... In the end I made a reservation with the place that fit my philosophy best. Even when I was swayed by doctors at other places about using donor rib cartilage, they remembered what I had said and corrected me, saying they did not want me to regret it again after it became a pointed nose. Anyway, my surgery is in two weeks and I'm nervous. I rambled a lot because I'm not good with words, but I hope it turns out well. The conclusion is: if you absolutely do not want a photo-beauty, surgery-beauty look and want a flashy line, then skip that clinic...