I did it in a rush during winter break in 10th grade I didn’t think it through carefully I want to beat up my past self for thinking of “double eyelid surgery” as only an easy and simple surgery After my double eyelid surgery went wrong, my life changed 180 degrees Rock bottom.. Partial incision + ptosis correction (judging by the slight smell of squid burning during surgery, I assume they also removed fat) The result was My eyes are extremely, extremely, extremely, extremely, extremely, extremely, extremely uneven The left side became an inner double eyelid The right side is a severe sausage eyelid. The flesh under the line is very puffy, it looks smaller than the eye that became an inner double eyelid, and it looks sleepy The only relief with the eye that became an inner double eyelid is that there’s no pulling and it feels comfortable But the sausage eyelid pulls so much it’s driving me crazy. Like the muscle was tied too tightly? It feels heavy and tired, and it’s hard to open my eye I think they set the line high and fixed it strongly too. Because of the pulling and all that, I’m extremely worried that the ptosis correction may also have been done badly Anyway, because the two eyes aren’t balanced, it’s uncomfortable to keep my eyes open It even seems to affect the rhythm of my breathing Sometimes my breath just catches.. I don’t know if it’s because of psychological reasons... On top of that, I often get headaches and dizziness The sausage eyelid also seems to have worsened my vision. It feels like my intraocular pressure has gone up..
I developed depression + social anxiety, so I stay shut in my room and don’t go out I’m in my early 20s and living like this Because I’m afraid revision surgery will ruin it even more, because of lethargy from anxiety + depression, and because of the impulse to just give up on everything and die, I’ve left it alone until now Even now, I’m going to pull myself together, hold onto my mental state, and start looking into revision surgery information It’s so hard..
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