Even though I’ve had surgery once before, I’m seriously so nervous ㅜㅜ I’m such a total, total scaredy-catㅜㅜㅜ It’s literally the day after tomorrow What if I don’t wake up from anesthesia, what if I can’t wake up from anesthesia and just die like that? That’s what I keep thinking ㅜㅜ Maybe it’s because during my first surgery, I didn’t tolerate the anesthesia well and threw up after waking up (I already told the doctor all of this in advance ㅠㅠ)
I’m not doing it because of contracture or any other particular problem. It’s been about 7-8 years since I had it done, but the silicone has shifted to the left and overall it’s curved in a C-shape, so that’s why I’m doing it But other people can’t tell at all (if I explain it in detail and they look, they’re like, “Oh? Yeah, I see it?”) When I look at it, it’s noticeable, and when taking photos, if you look really~ closely, you can tellㅜㅜ Everyone asks why I’m doing it ㅜㅜ But it bothers me so much that I decided to do it Did I make the right choice..? Since everyone says they can’t tell, I wonder if I should just live with it, and what if touching it one more time for no reason causes contracture or some other problem I keep thinking this really, truly, truly has to be the last timeㅜㅜㅜㅜ Thinking about swelling care + after 7-8 years my nose had become soft, and now it’ll get hard again and I’ll have to baby it, there’s just no answer,,,ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ haㅜㅜㅜ
I’m 50% hopeful it’ll get a little better, but 50% worried too, and I feel like I’m going crazy..ㅋㅋㅋ Everyone feels like this before surgery, right..?